I'll be 5 weeks pregnant on Friday and I am really struggling with the bloating and 'fat' feeling already. I have a history of anorexia and bulimia (more bulimic than anorexic I think) but have been well and managing it for the last ten years. However in the last 5 years I have been underweight and my BMI has fluctuated from 16-18. At the time I got pregnant it was closer to 18 and my GP didn't seem concerned at all. Since I found out I was pregnant ten days ago my belly has blown up like a balloon and in the first week I put on about 5lbs. I have lost 3lbs this week but my belly is still huge and I think I already look pregnant despite being so early.
I'm so confused. Why has my belly blown up the way it has? I totally expect to put weight on and am excited about showing but not at this stage. I can't wear any of the dresses I used to wear to work as they would all show my stomach and it is too obvious. I haven't told people at work yet for obvious reasons. I guess I'm just wondering if a) it's normal to be this round of belly at this stage b) will it go back before I start to show or is this now it? In which case I have 8 weeks of hiding it away and c) how do I mentally cope with this? I'm already being really careful with food and have gone back to a carb free diet other than my main meal in the evening and I'm worried I will start restricting even more if I don't get a handle on this. I want this baby and it was planned so I feel extremely guilty for feeling this way.
Any advice or experience would be greatly appreciated. I feel guilty, physically repulsed by myself and obsessive right now which I know are all bad mindsets to be in at this stage. Please help!!
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Eating disorders
5 weeks pregnant and already obsessing
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H0p3 · 16/03/2016 22:48
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