Complicated situation

[Asaroe91]

Ive posted before about my situation as I am going through a seperation and have two very young babies. 16 month old and 4 month old. Last Friday as per every Friday my 16 month old was picked up (late) by his dad n his dads mum. It was only meant to be his dads mums. Me n his dad got into an arguement which resulted in us fighting to keep hold of our son. My ex then kicked me in the legs n drove off with his mum. In all fairness she did try to calm me down but I am annoyed at the fact that she allowed my ex to drive off in her car with my clearly upset son. He had jus seen his dad be violent to his mum. Obv police were called but as theres no orders in place there was nothing they could do to get my son back to me. So I went with my aunty to collect him after making a statement. I got there n his mum opened the door trying to accuse me of causing trouble bcz i called the police. Obv I defended it bcz he had been violent towards me again. She did nothing to help the situation. I went to get my son and she just stood there watching the abusive talk coming from my ex whilst he was holding our son. They both play games with me and its not fair. All I am trying to do is give the best life to my kids and move on from it all in peace. My ex mum has been coming here siding with me about everything telling me that she understands and realises her son (my ex) has problems but then goes back and talks shit about me. Nobody from his side of the family has bothered to visit their new grandchild. They expect the kids to be bought to them every weekend n if they r nt they accuse me of stopping them seeing the kids. I have always welcomed them whenever they want to. Nobody takes the offer. And I het blamed every time. I am angry and extremely upset. I have done nothing wrong expect care 4 my kids. When I got my son back he cried on and off alll night n every night since last friday. He will continue for the rest of the week. I know this how? Bcz its happened many times before. He is 16 months old. And has had to suffer atleast once every month of his life since hes been born. I have now come to the decision as also advised by my solictor, social worker and health worker that I should stop contact for the kids sake more than my own. I can handle it but i dont want my kids to have to go through that alll the time.

I think this post is more for me to get my anger out. I have counselling on Saturday. My health visitor is coming tomorrow. And I have womens aid coming on thurs to help me get some orders in place. Im scared to even go through with it all. I know its going to cause up some trouble.