Hi all, I've been reading this topic for a few months now but never had the nerve to post - it felt like if I started I'd never stop!
In a nutshell, my 95 year old grandmother is as strong as an ox physically, but has severe dementia. She has never been in hospital and still doesn't need to wear glasses, but sadly her brain has totally gone and she only really recognises my grandfather now. My 94 year old grandfather is her main carer, but he is in ill health. She has a carer who lives across the road and who is a godsend, but she won't allow her anywhere near her for personal care (she is doubly incontinent and refuses to wear pads) and so my grandad has to do it all. The carer ends up doing the cooking and housework, which I try to hide from the social worker so that the direct payment doesn't get removed.
He refuses for either of them to go into a home, even together, and says that if she leaves their home she will give up and die. He still has his mental faculties and is pretty sharp, but he is depressed and struggles to look after her - he often cries when I'm there and says he's exhausted.
On top of this my 64 year old mum was also diagnosed with dementia last week. I had guessed that she had it, she had refused to visit my grandmother for the last 9 months because she said she'd called her a liar, and I must have heard the same story at least 40 times now. She was losing her car in town, and when I found it eventually the door was wide open with the keys in ignition, and so many other things. So on the one hand I'm glad she has a diagnosis, but my heart hurts and I am desperately worried about having another person to worry about - does that make sense? Her boyfriend is a rock for me and helps to look after both her and my grandparents.
On top of that my dad is an alcoholic who is in remission from tongue and throat cancer. He lives in a bedsit surrounded by empty vodka bottles and hasn't washed or brushed his teeth for nearly a year. He won't allow anyone in to care for him and the GP says he has capacity. He is not a nice man, and I have had to detach from him for my own sanity, I haven't seen him since April now although he's only 20 miles away, although we have been in written contact.
I also have been having issues with my teenage son who has a cannabis addiction. I was at work yesterday and had palpitations all day, my hands were shaking and I felt breathless. Didn't know what was happening - called the GP who asked if I'd been under any stress (!) - relayed the story and she has now signed me off for 2 weeks with Diazepam and Citalopram for anxiety. I feel like I've failed - I've been holding it together for so long and I feel like my body has betrayed me. I couldn't bring myself to tell my husband last night but texted him this morning after he left for work. He hasn't replied and that's making me even more anxious. His belief is very much that if you can't change a situation there's no point worrying about it, which I kind of get but can't make myself do!
I'm not sure what the point of this post was, other than to get it off my chest, and to say that reading all of your posts makes me sad but not so alone at the same time, so thank you all.
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Dementia and Alzheimer's
Parents and grandparents - need to offload!
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furrymuff · 09/12/2015 11:29
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