Hi all I'm looking for some support and/or advice.
I'm an expat in Poland and just had my first baby. He was delivered by c section 5 weeks early. We spent 8 days in hospital and we've now been home just over a week. He's 17 days old, suffered from quite bad jaundice and lost nearly 10% of his birth weight. He's getting better and the midwife is very happy with his progress.
However, the more time that goes on the more I'm struggling to deal with what happened. I had already been in hospital 2 days for monitoring when they gave us about an hours notice that he would need to be delivered. We were both in shock and unfortunately my husband couldn't be with me for the procedure as is normal here. So I had a c section, saw my baby for about a minute before he was taken to the nicu and spent the next 24 hours alone without my baby or husband. I speak some polish but not much medical polish. I had a run in with a physiotherapist which resulted in me crying hysterically.
Now I'm home with my baby and husband I'm beginning to feel very cheated out of the last few weeks of my pregnancy and cheated out of the experience of child birth. I wasn't ready to have him and I feel like I failed him by not carrying him to term. I know he's healthy and I love him so much I'm just really not coping with how he arrived. I'm well aware that it could have been much worse but it also could have been much better.
Anyone have some pearls of wisdom or their own story?
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Not coping/feeling cheated by c section
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CustardCreamLover · 07/02/2019 18:31
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