DD was born in hospital via ventouse. I was induced. Ended up giving birth in stirrups when her heartbeat dropped (it dropped once, and we nearly had an EMCS, but recovered, and the second time she was low enough for me to push out). Was 48hrs of hell to be honest, but I was grateful for having been in the hospital - when my MWs hit the red button (when her heartbeat didn't recover) the room was seemingly instantly full of experts.
Since then I've had major hospital treatment for a very serious and scary condition. All is fine now, but hospitals for me are no longer 'safe' places: they're places where you go to be told bad news and to receive horrendous treatment/surgery (albeit treatment which makes you healthy again). In addition, I'm now due to give birth (am 22wks) at a new hospital where procedure is to make you wear a gown throughout labour. Sounds silly but even the thought of putting on a hospital gown freaks me out because of memories of the last time I wore one.
I'm starting to panic, thinking that I'll freak if I go into hospital again, which will slow down my labour and I'll end up with the horrible birth I had with DD, or, worse (since it's more surgery and recovery time in hospital) a CS. So I'm thinking of a homebirth, but I think it's really unlikely it'll be agreed to because of DD's birth scenario and my more recent surgery. Plus I'm not entirely convinced of the safety of it (I'm not wanting to start a debate on this!).
So what do I do? Anyone else been freaked out about going into hospital? Feel like I'm caught between a rock and a hard place.
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Wanting homebirth due to fear of hospitals
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18wksplus · 05/10/2012 22:12
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