At the end of my last labour it was decided that things weren't progressing fast enough and a consultant was called in. I can't remember the exact details but it was decided that he would do an internal. I was told he was going to do it but I had no idea how painful it was going to be and it felt like he had his whole hand up there feeling/rummaging around her head. He then said that a c-section was necessary as he thought there was some sort of lump on her head (midwives had said that they thought her hand was by her head and this was indeed the case). Anyway, despite starting to be prepped for a section I managed to get her out naturally.
I was quite teary thinking about the internal for a few days after but then blocked it out. I had a smear test about 2 months after the birth and burst into tears as it brought back all the memories of the internal.
I know that the internal may well have been necessary but I can't help feeling upset by it.
Has anyone else felt like this? I was hoping for a homebirth this time around so that I could avoid being touched/examined so much but that is looking dubious at the moment so I need to try and get a handle on my feelings
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Has anyone else felt upset ('violated' maybe too strong a word) after an internal?
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hollyw · 22/07/2011 12:33
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