the thing i find hardest is how i keep getting blindsided by grief, it comes out of nowhere.
and this despite knowing you were dying, that i wasn't going to see you again after that summer, that you wouldn't meet ds...
i think i was expecting to be able to send you pictures, though.
i was thinking of you in the days before you died, that i really needed to send a letter with recent pics of c, that it had been a while. i put it off, but even if i had sent it, it never would have reached you in time.
i look at you picture everyday. it is a fuuny one, i don't know who got you to wear the silly hat, but it's the look in your face that i love best.
faced with a camera your face so often was like a closed fist and you gave nothing away, but in this picture you are smiling, looking at me expectantly, as if to say, 'tell me more'.
i gotta go, c is back with dh, i love you always.
xx
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chibi · 25/09/2009 16:55
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