It is almost a year since my Dad entered his final stage of cancer. Next week will be a year since he became fully paralised due to tumours spreading suddenly to his spine. He finally died in july.
I can't get rid of the images of him lying in his bed at home. It feels like it's all consuming and I can't get the slightest thing done without thinking of him.
I have tried so hard this year to remember all the wonderful times we had with him during his four year battle with cancer, but all I can think of now is how it all ended. It's like having flashbacks, recalling sights, smells and sounds of that time in complete clarity as if it's still happening, over and over again.
How can I push these horribly, traumatic memories away? I want the good memories back.
Feel as if I am going to be reliving it all until July, even music is taking me right back to the time and place where I don't want to be
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Having flash backs to Dads final stage of cancer, can't stop the images
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drivinmecrazy · 12/05/2009 09:59
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