This time last year, we were trying to convice my mum that there was nothing wrong with her. And yet we spent weeks going back and fore the gp's, going for blood tests. The doctor couldnt find nothing wrong with her. She was given anti-biotics after anti-biotics, given steriod as they thought she had post viral fatigue.
We convinced her to get dressed, go out, all the time she didnt want too as she didnt feel well. and yet we pushed, all of us. Even got my mums sister to 'talk' to her about her 'pretend' illness and that she needed to get out of the house.
And yet my mum had lung cancer, we didnt find out until August, she really was ill, and yet no-one not one of us believed her to begin with. Looking back all the symptoms were there, just not all together when she saw the doctor, but always the same complaint that she had. nothing was done.
I feel so guilty i didnt believe her, i should of, she knew she was ill and yet had everyone trying to tell her she wasn't.
I cant tell her how sorry i am for not believing her, even when she finally had her diagnoses, i never said sorry for not believing her.
I took my mum for her chemotherapy appointments, watched her get weaker and weaker. Took her for radiotherapy. took her to all her oncologist appointments.
I have been thinking back to the last week of her life, and trying to think if there was anything that i could of done differently. Things i should of said, when i had the chance, and yet there was normally silence, we just sat there, no-body spoke about anything.
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tots2ten · 22/04/2009 11:13
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