I've been reading alot of the posts on here and know that im not the only one feeling the way i do, but it doesn't make it any easier for me. My mum Anne was the most kind and caring lady that i have ever known, im not just saying this because she's my mum but because she truly was and everyone loved her.
It's been just over 5 weeks now and i feel as though i cant keep living my life feeling the way i do. I have 2 beautiful kids and a lovely hubby who are helping me through as best they can but it is still so hard.
I think what is making it so hard for me to accept is the fact that there was nothing atol wrong with her......she was a healthy 51 year old who worked with the elderly(which she loved so much) even stood on a Saturday night cooking them all a Sunday dinner but that was just her all over would do anything for anyone and always considered everyone else before herself. She was in doing her Christmas shopping on the Wednesday before she died, felt unwell on the Thursday with stomach pains and died in hospital at 1.05pm on the Friday 5th December.
The only thing that i am so glad of is that she was conscious while in hospital, although on lots of morphine for the pain, but we all got to say our goodbyes and tell her how much we all loved her. She had her family and best friends with her when she passed away which is what she would have wanted, I am so glad she had that.
Before she passed away, she told me to stay at uni and finish my nursing course, which i am going to do for her although at the minute i dont feel like sitting exams and writing essays but it's what she wanted so i am going to try my hardest for her xx
I bought a beautiful little trinket box, which i am going to keep some of her ashes in so she will be with me always and forever.
Thanks to anyone who reads this, but i just had to write down some of my thoughts because although i have lots of friends and family to talk to, i feel as if i dont want to keep talking about my um to them as I know it can't be very nice for them to see me upset all the time.
Anyway thanks for reading what i've had to say and anyone in the sae position as me who has lost a loved one please feel free to send me your thoughts as i will be quite happy to listen if i think it will make you feel any better.
Anne Thompson
Born 24.10.57
Died 05.12.08
May you rest in peace mum and as we all know, only the good die young xxxxxxxxxx
Love and miss you more than you will ever know or words can ever say.
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My beautiful mum died very suddely on 5th December 2008 aged 51.....Miss her so much
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