I would appreciate any advice from anybody who has lost a parent. My father (who was in his early 60s) died 5 months ago of a terminal illness. We knew he was going to die for several weeks before he did as his treatment wasn't working. For the last few months of his life he suffered terribly - I won't go into details, but he suffered immensely and those images of him will haunt me forever. In that way, it was quite a relief when he went, because he suffered so much and we couldn't see just how he could get any worse.
Over the whole process of his illness and since his death, I've obviously had a few tears here and there, but I've carried on more or less the same as before. I've got a young family and a very demanding job (which I love) and I had no time off after he died even though I was told that I could. I can talk about what happened quite freely if people ask and am not in any state of denial. I was very close to my dad and he was somebody who I loved and respected immensely. However, I keep thinking that there is something 'wrong' with me - surely people who suffer such a loss have some kind of depression/ problems sleeping, etc?
I know there are a range of emotions that I could feel such as being incredibly bitter that he went before he 'should' have and left us all. Or, feeling so sad for him, as he certainly did not want to die. Or feeling guilty that I didn't tell him certain things before he went? I don't feel any of these things particulary although I do miss him alot. I was just wondering if anybody else had felt pretty 'balanced' after going through something like this? I know I can't actually sit and make myself cry, but on the other hand, I worry that life is too 'normal' considering what has happened.
Sorry to go on, just trying to make some sense of everything.
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sherylshore · 27/05/2008 12:16
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