Sometimes it just gets you...

[Sleepingbunnies]

28 years ago my mummy died leaving behind 3 small children. She was 32.

Today i have 3 small children and am 32. Its shit. I miss my mummy. I never really talk about her or allow myself to cry because once i open the door it takes me a while to calm down.

But today i want to wallow and cry and scream that its not fair. I want my mummy :(

[Rareshopkins]

Am so sorry . So you were 4 when she died? How sad you didn't know her for longer. It's truly shit.
I was 40 when my mum died and that was awful, I can't imagine how difficult it is for a child.

Have you come across the book motherless daughter? I came across it last year on Amazon. Wasn't really relevant to me, but might be worth a look. The author talks about her own feelings when she reached the age she was when her mum died and what a relief it was to pass it.

Take care.

[Sleepingbunnies]

Yup 4. My sister was 18 months, i have a DD who is 14 months. Its all hitting home a bit too much today :(