Happiness has a ceiling

[pennygoodlife]

It's 2 yrs on sat since my DM left me. It's felt like 2 years as well. I've lost both parents. Whilst it was their time, I suppose... And I'm a lucky middle aged mum of two delightful DC I don't think I'll ever be truly happy or maybe I mean carefree, again. I can only get so happy before I hit that ceiling. But if you saw me you'd think I was a happy soul with lots of life. That's what loss does to you. I wish one of them was there for a chat, or just a knowing smile, when the kids are playing up, mum could say " their only kids, relax" when I can't be bothered to rustle up a meal she say oh make it easy on yourself get a take away oh I could go on. Sorry I'm being a bit indulgent. But it's just a sad time at the moment X

[butterfly990]

Be gentle on yourself. What would they be saying to you now?

Take care of yourself xx

[Findmuckery]

pennygoodlife it's hard isn't it? You're parents would want you to be happy and they would be proud of you with your DC. You're right though, things take on a different slant when you lose a parent

[alazuli]

penny just wanted to say sorry for your loss. it must be very hard to lose both your parents. i think losing someone you love changes you forever. you're not as innocent and carefree anymore. hugs for you. xx

[LuckyBitches]

Your post resonates with me OP. It's been 2.5 years since my lovely little brother died, and I don't think I'll be as happy as I was before, but I am definitely more appreciative, which I'm glad about. I've just realised that life is inherently sad. Your parent's haven't left you completely if you know how what they'd say to you - they live on in you. Why not have a chat with them, even if they're not there?

[ssd]

losing both parents is just awful, its never the same