My sister died 10 days ago from severe aplastic anaemia. It's all been very sudden, she only found out she had the condition around 11-12 weeks ago when she couldn't stop bleeding from her menstrual cycle.
She was in hospital going through blood transfusions, tests, constant scans to check for internal bleeding, septicaemia, ulcers in her mouth and all sorts. She got pneumonia then had a bone marrow transplant on the 23rd March. It didn't work in time and she died in the early hours of March 31st after a being put in an induced coma the previous afternoon.
I'm not sure it's registered with me. I mean, I know she's died and the day after I felt really shocked and numb but I haven't barely cried or felt too sad. The last time I spoke to her she was chirpy and normal, that was the 22nd March. I didn't see her in hospital due to the distance and difficulty bringing my toddler. She couldn't have children near her except her own and that was only occasional as she was in isolation, she had hardly any immune system and illnesses could kill her.
We spoke on the phone almost daily but hardly about her condition, mostly normal things like our favourite potato fillings and such. We were very close as sisters, just 16 months apart. She was just 9 days from her 35th birthday which was yesterday.
I feel like I should be more upset but for some reason I just feel acceptance. I feel sorry for her kids though as she's left behind 4 children aged between 4 and 17 years old. The funeral is on Thursday and I'm dreading going and facing things.
Anyway the point is since her death I haven't been sleeping properly. The first couple of nights I slept downstairs on the sofa with my dad who lives with me. Since then I've slept with the light on in my room. I've been waking at all hours and never later than 6am.
I feel spooked. I get scared going to the toilet on my own or walking upstairs if it's dark. If there's noises at night such as my dd coughing or moving in her sleep I get the creeps. I don't know why logically as I don't think she's going to haunt me or anything it's more like I'm thinking about death more and it's scared me.
Has anyone else gone through this? Will I start to feel upset when I realise I will miss her? Will I stop feeling spooked? Is this normal grief? Thanks
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feeling spooked after sister's death
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Jw35 · 10/04/2016 23:58
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