Not sure if this is the right place to post. Not sure if I even should post but can't talk about this in rl and need to write how I feel.
14 years ago today I had a termination. I was in my second trimester and it was a dreadful, horrendous, heartbreaking situation. I was a teenager and really wanted to keep my baby but was forced to end the pregnancy (hence it being quite 'late' as I'd tried everything to not go through with it).
Every year on this day I feel dreadful. Truth be told it is in my thoughts most days and the pain has never lessened.
I just wanted to acknowledge my loss today. I want my baby to know I am sorry and that I loved him so so much.
I just can't stop crying. After all this time and it still hurts so much. I was never allowed to speak about it and have only recently started counselling so things feel particularly raw this year as I've allowed myself to feel what I tried to bottle up for so long.
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Edenviolet · 27/11/2014 16:59
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