I lost my Mum 8 months ago after she battled Ovarian cancer for just four short months, she was just 65 and she was my best friend and best supporter
Four months later my Dad passed away too.. He had bad health for 15 years, my mam was his carer. They didnt have a great relationship at the end and I had no relationship with him at all. His death still hit me hard I suppose I was grieving for the relationship I never had.
I am really struggling this week.
The enormity of my mams death has hit me all over again. The physical pain is unbearable like a rock where my heart should be and stomach ache all day everyday.
I miss her so so much I just want to hear her voice or hear her laughing, just to know she is OK and knows we miss and love her so much.
I am taking antidepressants for pnd, they help get me through the day, force me out of bed and help me to put the fake happy face on.
I have two young dc. I also have brothers and sisters, although we meet regularly we are not close I find it hard to talk to them about how we are all feeling. They like me are very good at putting on their fake happy faces.
Sometimes I wish I could run away from my thoughts and feelings, no such luck
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LucyBabs · 21/07/2013 19:11
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