I've got a group of friends who I made thro DS1 nearly 2, who don't know about DD1 who would be 5 this year.
To be honest the friendship is starting to dwindle a bit, it was the anniversary last month and I could't meet them as the grief was too much (but didn't tell them this.)
I want to explain to them the real reason I couldn't come and was hoping to do it in person, but there wasn't the opportunity at this month's meet up. I want them to know as it is really hard repressing it, when they talk about second babies or how lucky we have all been, it's like I am living a lie.
I am scared of telling them, because most other people I tell, I never hear from again; people feel too awkward. My DH was of the school of "don't talk about it" [it has been hard believe me, but I have had some counselling and am about to arrange more in order to have an outlet as there isn't at home] - and he has just read the email I was about to send; and said don't send it as they will think you are mental!!
In some ways I think he might be right as it was a long time ago; I also think they won't know how to handle it. However I really want some good friends that know me, the real me, and feel like I am living a lie.
My confidence in my own social skills has taken a knock because of how most of my friends have been, and I just don't know if emailing re this is appropriate or if it will cause our friendship to end.
I am going to attend a SANDS meeting soon as I think that this will provide an environment for me to discuss what happened freely and as I said, have more counselling soon. I realise I need to do this as, having repressed it all for so long, I am going to be psychologically screwed up if I do it for much longer.
I just wondered if anyone could be kind enough to post any thoughts they had.
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leftoutperson · 02/04/2011 20:56
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