I really am just here for support and advice... Please don't judge me as its not an easy decision for me....
I have a 4yo already and am 22 my partner and I found out we were pregnant in march and he wanted an abortion at first but we decided to continue this pregnancy, since then our relationship has completely broken down. He left me high and dry on Monday and I am not coping, I feel like I was living in a fairy tale before Monday not truly thinking of all the consequences of this decision... Since learning he doesn't want to be with me or want the baby has broken my heart I have now hit reality....
Bringing another child in to the world on my own would be unmanageable... I was left early in my sons life, I struggled to say the least, since he has become older i have gained back my life, to a manageable point, I lost all of my uounger years but I done it, being left with a baby, and him i would not cope. I feel like I would neglect my first born, and not be the best parent for a new child, I have suffered depression and I feel I am back there, I don't work, and I could not provide a stable life on my own for this baby, I have a tone of debt already I would struggle to buy everything a baby needs and would unintentionally have to put my first sons needs on hold which I feel would only effect him negatively, in my eyes he wouldn't have the best start in life. I feel so alone and so vulnerable, to a point of not being able to continue. My now, ex does not want to be with me, he has left me and I can't deal with it, I thought we were forever and he promised he would never put me through what my first child's dad done... He promised, when I told him everything. I can't deal with this reality and as much as I would love to be a great mother I just think my mental health would seriously deteriorate and my sons life will be ruined.... The worst of it is I'm 15weeks, I'm a disgusting person for even thinking about this, I am in a dark tunnel and can't see any light.
Has anyone had a similar situation, or be able to give me advise? I have not yet spoken with a professional, but I do plan to....
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Cakeisyummy · 15/05/2013 09:26
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