Hyperemesis, 10 weeks and feeling low.

[Kep2019]

I’m ten weeks pregnant and have HG. It’s calmed down now after two hospital admissions in a week, but still feel nauseous all the time and constantly feel like I’m on a boat. I Don’t have the energy to get out of bed or leave my bedroom, plus we got a puppy before We found out we were pregnant and I can’t stand the smell of the dog or the downstairs of my house. (Mainly because of the puppy)
My partner has been great but practically lives downstairs while I live upstairs due to him needing to look after the puppy and I can’t sleep in the same bed as him as he’s restless and moves round a lot making my nausea a whole lot worse!
The thought of food makes me wretch and no food seems to appeal to me, even water is making me feel sickly now. As it’s just the same taste over and over again.
I’ve been off work since week 5 of my pregnancy because of hg and I’m hoping to go back in 3 days - maybe a routine will help me?!
Im constantly crying and feeling lonely and alone, envious that those around me are feeling fine and not sick. - causing me to snap and be rude to them for no reason.

I have suffered from depression and anxiety in the past but don’t feel this is the same feelings I’ve had before- this feels different.

I don’t know if my low mood is because of constantly feeling sick and the situation my sickness has unfortunatley put my partner and myself in or if it is indeed the mental health coming back.

Please tell me I’m not the only one that hyperemesis gravidarum has affected emotionally aswell as physically?
Any ideas to help combat this awful feeling are much appreciated too!

[FlissMumsnet]

Hi Kep2019,

We're so sorry to hear how awful you're feeling but we know you're not alone.

We can't offer any expert advice but we just wanted to pop in, say hello, offer our sympathy and give your thread a bump.

We very much hope some of our kind and wise user will be along shortly to give you some advice and support.

We hope you feel much better very soon.

[WorldsOnFire]

@Kep2019

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!! 🎉
Although it feels like you are right now.
I’m currently 27 weeks and was signed off work from week 5 with HG too.

I spent all my time isolated, sobbing, starving and wretching whilst DH was working 60+ hours a week and cared for our cat. I hit such a dark place (had never suffered MH before though) and even considered terminating the pregnancy as I just couldn’t exist like that anymore. I didn’t recognise myself, felt my life had been ruined and my body taken hostage by a parasite. All of which I felt awful for even thinking because we had planned and wanted the baby!

I resented my DH and our baby I just felt so trapped and like I was failing at everything - couldn’t keep my life together, couldn’t take my vitamins, my BMI dropped to 18 and I was admitted to hospital.

I tried so many meds and broke down every time they failed, it felt hopeless, I’d go to bed at 6pm because I just didn’t want to be awake anymore!!

Asking for help was really hard and I felt so guilty but nobody judged me- I was told repeatedly how common it is during HG to get severely depressed. The midwives got me MH support and I see a psychologist now.

The sickness got more manageable around 22 weeks and this made a huge difference.

If you haven't already, please ring pregnancy sickness support ASAP (google them) speaking to them at around 10 weeks was the most positive thing I did. Then get an apt booked at your GP- tell them you have HG (not morning sickness) and get yourself on a cocktail of medication - I would recommend omerazole for the acid and then a good anti emetic. Also ask to be referred for MH support as you have perinatal depression.

• Do not listen to anyone else’s opinion on taking meds to help. They are not a GP!
  
• Don’t set yourself goals ‘I’m going to do X by X date’ you’ll only get more depressed if you can’t achieve it. (You May need to be off work for some time).
  
• Understand that it’s not like a normal illness where you ‘recover’ and get on with your life. Chances are you’ll have ‘good bits’ and ‘bad bits’ for a while, maybe even until baby is out.
  
• Just know there is light at the end of the tunnel and take as much enjoyment in the small things as you possibly can.
  

If you want to PM me feel free

[KatyN]

Defo not alone. My second pregnancy put me in a similar state. She’s now 4 and every now and again I come back to this board.
I joke that I took so many drugs to get through her pregnancy she probably rattled but at the time it was far from funny.
I took two antidepressants, diazepam and beta blockers.

Ask for all the help you can get. My mw was marvellous and the perinatal mh team really helped. I was induced to manage the delivery in my way.

Hang in there if you can kxxxx

[Kep2019]

Worlds on fire & KatyN

Thankyou so much for replying! ♥️

Sometimes I think you know you aren't alone, but seeing and hearing so many other pregnant mums around you enjoying their pregnancy and complaining about the odd bit of morning sickness makes you feel so alone and isolated.

I haven't managed to go back to work yet, and I'm having more bad days than good! I think at the moment I just need to accept I'm still not well and I need to give myself time and credit that I'm actually growing a tiny human inside me!!

But both of your replies have filled me with a bit more confidence! - so for that I'm truly thankful!

💕😘

[GaaaaarlicBread]

Hey sorry I didn’t see this sooner , I’m not sure if I’m a bit late replying now , I hope you are hopefully feeling And back at work .
Just wanted to pop by and say I feel very similar and recently posted a post similar this eve . I’m so so low but not like the depression I’ve experienced before . It’s very isolating x

[auslass]

Had that with my pregnancy (now at 25 weeks), had it for the first 16 weeks and it was the worst, and totally feel for you.

Make sure you're talking to your GP about how its affecting your mental state, there is help for you.

Just do whatever you need to do to get through it, make clear how much support you need and what you need from those around you.

Take care xx