Hello. I just really need to share my thoughts! This year has been a tough year it should of been the best year of my life but my life but apparently not :( I got with my wonderful boyfriend at the start of Feb last year (there was a lot of stress caused by my ex and debts he wouldn't help with which my new bf helped with) but my bf stuck with me through it and at the start of April I became pregnant with my little boy (I have a 6 year old already and he has a 2 year old) my daughter started making things very difficult basically straight away when getting with my bf, e.g not listening, just playing up all the time. (I understand that's probably due to the change) we moved in with his mum and dad a few months into my pregnancy, it was only ment to be for a few months ended up being a year (the worst time of my life) I don't open up to people easily and I'm not a very talkative person and his mum used to make a massive deal and be funny with me ect which made things harder because my daughter was playing up everyday, I was pregnant and I only had a little room in a 3 bed house to have time to myself (which his mum would just walk in at anytime even if I was getting changed and would still do whatever she came in there for) she still had stuff of hers in the cupboard. I had to bite my tounge and literally home everything in! We've moved out now and can barely afford to live, we have enough money for bills and that's it. Everything I have is basically second hand or stuff I've had for years, I lose my temper everyday, I winge everyday about how much I hate my life and that I don't want to be here anymore. I'm the total opposite to the girl I used to be, my house is always a mess, I only get dressed if I'm going out, I don't do my make up anymore. Me and my bf never argue untill recently because of all the stress, sometimes I just tell him to leave me because I'm just not loveable at all right now. That's just half of it, I really don't know what to do anymore, I find myself saying every single day I can't do this anymore and I'm scared I actually might end my life.