19 month old sudden/delayed PND

[Nlscott]

Since the birth of my first baby girl I have suffered with anxiety ! The anxiety mostly surrounding my partner having another child. I was convinced he didn't love my child as him and his family made it all about his older child. His other child was very demanding around this time and whatever she want she got, she was treated like the new baby and I felt like mine was just the second grandchild (nothing special) If that makes sense. Me and my partner have fought and nearly split up due to this in the very early stages however since then he has become really supportive and understands a lot more now. I have always felt since she has been born nothing has been how it should be. I can tell you a lot more but it would be a huge story. Anyway I have alwYs felt something Is not right, I panic about the future constantly, I can't just enjoy today, something no matter how small is worrying me. Anyway we are currently on our first holiday with our little one ( just the 3 of us) she got sick on the first night and since then all I have done is cry uncontrollably, I feel numb but have this huge knot in my stomach. I feel like the holiday is ruined, I have ruined the holiday, I feel guilt and yet again it's nothing how it's should feel. Has anyone had post natal anxiety that has turned into Pnd? I have never felt this low and am actually quiet scared

[1980Gal]

Hi NIscott,

I've just stumbled across your post from a couple of months back and see that nobody replied at the time. I hope you are okay.

The most important thing is for you to speak to someone such as the HV or GP if you have not done so already, as the way you describe things suggests you have been finding things very tough for quite some time. Families and their dynamics can be trying at the best of times; throw in a new baby and getting used to motherhood, and then having to negotiate the new family set up together with a half sibling /step child and the in-laws, and well, it wouldn't be unusual for there to be some complications along the way. The constant worrying sounds like you need some professional support, however.

It's great that you've been able to talk to your other half about things in the past, so be open with him now too.Whether it is PND or not, you feel the way you feel, and it's important that you have some support with the anxiety and feeling low.