I'm probably being pathetic but I just want to cry...I'll bullet point it to try and stop this being incredibly long.
- I'm 29 weeks PG.
- I was very ill a few weeks ago with this saga and I'm struggling to recover fully meaning I'm still really tired.
- I'm anaemic and on iron tablets.
- My DH came back last night from being abroad with his work all week meaning I was looking after DD1 (aged 5) and DD2 (aged 3) all week myself.
- DH has just been dropped off at the pub with his mates to go to the football leaving me with DD1 and DD2 until 6pm when we collect him again from the pub.
- As he is at the football, I'm NOT at my NCT sales team meeting where I get to spend some time with my friends.
- I've been nagged about the finances since I got up (including what I presume was a joke about me getting a job now), as well as it being mentioned that in the week he has been gone I've not made enough inroads into either clearing the garage or potty training DD2.
- DH did take the girls out this morning for a couple of hours to the beach to build sandcastles leaving me alone for a couple of hours to have a shower in peace and read my book.
I Honestly just want to cry. I'm sick of hearing from my Mum and my friends "you are overdoing it" which I KNOW but what other option is there...I have to look after the girls - they need fed and entertained and bathed and cleaned up after and things - I can't just stop doing those things because I've not been well and I'm exhausted.
I've got a film lined up for them to watch for a wee while this afternoon while I have a rest but its not ideal and I certainly can't just entertain them like that for the next 5 hours until DH is back from the pub.
I know I'm really hormonal but I suspect everyone is sick to the back teeth of hearing how tired I am - I certainly have the feeling from DH that he is now just dismissing that as "just what Bathsheba says all the time". I know he hs rights to go out to the football and to be with his friends, esp after a hard week at work and having to miss the last game because we were all ill, but I just think he could go out with a bit more consideration and grace and acknowledgement that I have to therefore not do things I want to do so that he can do things that he wants to do.