I have just recovered from a nasty gallstone attack, my 7th attack in 4 weeks. I cannot take the pain anymore, it is just unbearable.
I am waiting for an MRI so I can have the operation to have my gallbladder removed. I have been waiting almost 4 months, unfortunately no clinics or MRI appointments are taking place because of coronavirus, so I have to wait indefinitely.
I have been given strong painkillers which worked the one time I took them. The problem with the painkillers is that when I have taken them I cannot feed my baby and even though I have a freezer full of breast milk he just won't take a bottle. He gets all panicky and takes in loads of air and is sick.
So my choice when an attack starts is crippling agony or starve my baby. It sounds melodramatic but that is how it feels. So when it started this evening I found myself sat (scrunched in a ball) with all the pills I had been prescribed and thought 'if I take all of these now the pain goes away and I'll never be in pain again'. Luckily my baby fidgeted in his crib and I snapped out of it and just started crying. I can't believe I was thinking that, that I could even consider leaving my baby without a mother but the pain is so bad I just can't cope.
I will ring the GP in the morning but I have no idea what to say to them. I know there is nothing they can do because I have tried them before.
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Spanglebangle · 20/05/2020 02:10
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Am I being unreasonable?
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