I work in an academy and I have just given my resignation on Friday afternoon. I teach a shortage subject and I know for sure that they will struggle to find someone for next year. We've always been told to give a few months notice but I really CAN'T do it anymore. The job that I love is no longer bearable. My marriage was about to finish last year. I feel awful for saying that but I look after other people's children and provide them with the perfect support and knowledge, but I don't do that with my own two DDs. Because I'm always stressed, shattered and under pressure. Why would I do this to myself and to my family? They definitely deserve better.
I love my students but I no longer feel enthusiastic to see them. I hate my school. It's all about proving everything and anything. The kids are constantly given stupidly high targets. No one gives a monkey about my wellbeing. It's a competitive school with fantastic achievements, the best regionally, but with miserable staff. They made me do a lot of stupid tasks throughout the years. All in the name of "we want the best for these kids". The reality is they don't! They want fancy data and a folder full of "we tried this ... we tried that" to show to Ofsted.
I've got some amazing students which I'm really sad to leave, but I also have A LOT of rude brats whom I honestly hate! Yes I said it. I hate them. I've had enough and I'm not ready to give second chances. I've given them all and now I want to work with people who want to work or at least try.
I cry at least 3 times a week in my car after school. I'm feeling crap and I feel trapped because of the finances, mortgage, daughters' private lessons ...etc.
I felt so happy and relieved on Friday but spent this weekend feeling guilty about leaving the school in this hard time ( 1 member of staff left in Christmas and no HOD). My colleagues are jealous and I've had a lot of good luck hugs but I'm not able to enjoy it.
AIBU?
To feel guilty about quitting now
LaCitrouille · 24/03/2019 19:34
Please don’t feel guilty OP 
I was in a similar position to you a couple of years ago when I stopped my teacher training course (also in an academy) after dealing with very similar circumstances to the ones you describe here. Although I was only doing teacher training, I also felt guilty and also panicked, as I had no idea what I could do next.
Would you be able to work as a tutor (for example) whilst you plan what to do next? As you’re teaching a shortage subject, you’ll certainly be in demand, and you could offer individual and group lessons, both online and face-to-face.
I quit at Christmas and am so much happier. I'm doing supply and working 4-5 days each week. I leave the house at 8am and I am home with the kids by 4pm every day and have my evenings and weekends with my family.
I'm not sure that supply is a long term solution for me but it is perfect for now! Get yourself signed up with an agency asap! 
I dont blame you for walking.
My son attended an academy school for most of year 7. It was hell. SLT could give Theresa May a run for her money!
Most of his teachers were lovely but they weren't allowed to talk to me and it all had to go through the nasty senco. Why? Because they'd have given him the support he needed. She denied he needed any.
They also covered up my ds being the victim of common assault with a weapon in class despite them reporting it to me in the first place 🤦🏼♀️
Best moment for me was 4 months after he left the judge in sendist tribunal (refusal to assess) basically wouldn't fall for her bullshit, wouldn't let her play politician and wanted facts and then basically told her she didn't have qualifications to question professionals.
It was a toxic environment. The teachers were soooooooo obviously controlled and versed in what they could and couldn't say. Parents evening they talked to parents but looked terrified if they were asked a question.
Best of luck for your future endeavours 
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