I have been friends with this guy for just over 15 years, we went to college together and have had regular contact with one another on a weekly if not daily basis for the past 15 years. It's always been platonic, a few flirty drunken messages but nothing substantial to mention over this amount of time. We are the best of friends, he's even referred to me like a sister(!) at times to other friends.
He has just turned round after all this time and told me that he loves me and wants to be with me and sees himself spending the rest of his life with me. He lost a close family member just before Christmas and apparently this has put a lot of things into perspective. Of course I'm over the moon and smitten. If I'm honest I've loved him from the moment I met him but have never had the opportunity to tell him or had fear of being rejected.
But there are a couple of problems I can't get past:
First of all he's mildly famous. He is one of the lesser know band members, but it's more his band that is very well known and they have a flock of fans. Now he's warned me if we go public there is a chance I will get some hate on social media. If it was just about me i wouldn't really care, I have a thick skin. The problem is I have a 2 year old with my ex and I don't feel comfortable with them being in the limelight or being targeted by trolls.
I am a private person and like keeping myself to myself, and I'm not sure I'm ready to be known by their fans and be picked to pieces yet. However if I am going to enter this relationship then obviously I will go and see him perform and be seen out with him and the other members of the band. He's ready to take the leap but again my sons safety keeps coming into my head.
He said he wants both my son and I in his life and he loves us both. They see each other often anyways due to our friendship so it's not going to change too much. It's when he goes on long tours it's hard for my son and I not seeing him. The longest was 15 months when he toured Europe and I only saw him the once.
Again if it was just me it wouldn't be a problem I can hop on a flight or stay a few nights with him. I can't see myself bringing my son into that world however and it's hardly rock and roll trying to look after a toddler whilst they all hang out. Again my son comes first so I would never dream of putting him in a situation like that in the first place. I'm just saying, would I ever get to see him?
Finally how the hell can I compare to these girls he's been with and those that drool all over them each and every day? We haven't even been intimate yet and I'm not sure I want to show him my mum bod. Some of his other band members are dating bloody models I'm going to stick out like a sore thumb.
Has anyone here ever dated someone or even married someone in the music industry or even someone that's worked away for long periods at a time? I can't talk to my friends because they are mutual and don't know about us declaring our love for one another yet and I have no siblings I can confide in.
I feel I should be shouting on the rooftops that finally I've met the man of my dreams but feel like I don't want to just jump into something without thinking of the consequences. Obviously I'm not saying I'll be on the front pages of magazines anytime soon but life will be slightly different from my normal day to day mum life.
It might be worth mentioning too that I work for a public company that states in their policy that if you are likely to be in the media or press at all you need to tell them. Anyone have any advice on this too?
So AIBU to take the risk? Please be nice. I've been a long time lurker and have found Mumsnet so useful since becoming a mum myself. I know this isn't a first world problem but I've just turnt 30 and would like to start enjoying life.
Obviously I've made sure this isn't outing.
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
AIBU?
AIBU to follow my heart?
6 replies
PlainJane89 · 18/03/2019 13:28
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.