Just that really.
I’m tired, tired of working 7 days a week to make this business work. It is working and I have been lucky that it’s been relatively successful in a fairly short period of time (18 months) but it is such hard work.
I have had 5 days off in the last 18 months, I even worked Christmas Day and Boxing Day. Whilst my wage is okay it’s not great and I can’t take on anything else myself to increase if as I’m too busy, yet don’t have the funds to be able to take anyone else on. I have looked into it and spoken to other people in my field who have done it and they said, realistically they had to give the new recruit half their business/ wage for around 6 months before they got their diary full. That’s on top of paying them a pension and mileage allowance each month. There’s just no way I could do it.
The job itself I don’t mind the majority of the time but it’s the customer side of things that’s grating me recently. I’m very lucky in that I do have a lot of lovely customers but trying to keep them all happy every single day is stressing me out and making me ill.
I’m tired of not being able to afford to take holiday (or if I can stressing trying to find cover for the business) I’m tired of always worrying about what would happen if I became ill (again no one to cover and no income for me) I’m tired of trying to keep everyone happy all of the time yet often making myself miserable in the process. And I’m tired of always worrying about money because my wage fluctuates each month.
I never thought I’d say this but I’m fairly lonely too some of the time. I do miss having colleagues and a laugh each day.
But how on earth id go about going back into employment I don’t know. I’ve always gotten on well in every job I’ve done and have good references (or should) but I have job hopped a bit. There are about 5 jobs (including my self employment) in the last 9 years on my CV as I haven’t really stayed with any one company for more than 2 years. That genuinely is because of redundancy once though and the others just through career progression but not within the same company.
I can’t go into too much detail re my self employment as it would be too outing but it’s not at all related to anything I’ve done before or anything I would be going back to.
I’m really struggling to think what to put as my reasons for not wanting to be self employed anymore. The reasons above aren’t really professional and I don’t know how to paint it in a positive light.
Has anyone left self employment to go back to paid employment but in a different sector?
Am I mad to be considering giving up my business?
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Confused2018 · 24/01/2018 08:17
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