I feel like my mind is always in a bit of a negative spiral. I really don't want to come across as self indulgent as I know there are people going through horrible things at the moment and I am aware of how I sound. It's just I always feel so down because I think bad things are going to happen and always think the worst and can't snap out of it. An example is I got married recently to an amazing man. In the build up I wouldn't allow myself to get excited as I though he may leave me or call it off (no reason).
Now we are married we are TTC. Ten years ago an ex gave me chlamydia. I had severe symptoms and was treated I imagine within about 8 weeks. Until now I hadn't worried about it but now I am convinced we will never be able to have a family and my DH will leave me over it. I will try and think positive then read a story about someone in a bad situation and get worried again thinking it will happen to me. I'm always googling about infertility after an STD etc. We have only been trying for two months and I'm a nervous wreck.
I keep much of this to myself and don't tell people even DH about these fears. I need to live my life and be happy in the here and now and not be so scared of the future- has anyone been in the same boat? Can anyone help? Thank you.
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Does anyone else always imagine the worst and get themselves worked up about it?
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Drupie · 16/06/2017 14:40
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