To be really fucking proud of myself?

[Vulty]

This seems daft but today I took my 3yr old dd into town WITHOUT the buggy. We had to go to the contact centre which is pretty depressing but today I actually had fun? There was 8 of us ladies with psychotic ex's who are abusive violent and had caused us hell all in the same position. We all shared stories and somehow laughed, it was like us all sharing this horrific time in our life made it better because we all understood each other. I felt better when I left even though I always dread it. Afterwards I decided myself n daughter deserved a treat. We both got new jeans and a top, dd also got fancy bath bombs, a new DVD and new books. Her behavior was challenging. I suffer from bad social anxiety But somehow managed! I kept her distracted with helping me and made everything fun I was totally winning. She is now tucked up in bed after her bath bomb bath with her new nightie on. Why do I feel bad for being tipsy?! Im half way through a bottle of wine. My other half isn't drinking. I've had the worst week been craving wine all week but why the guilt?

[Champagneformyrealfriends]

Enjoy your wine!

[DerekSprechenZeDick]

That first trip into town without a pram still haunts me

Enjoy the wine, finish the bottle, you deserve it. Then open another and have a drink for me

I love that she got bath bombs. My son at 3 would have wanted just kinder eggs

[shittlebaggle]

Enjoy your wine. You need to celebrate a successful day!

[Vulty]

Usually she just wants kinder eggs! But she stopped outside lush and wanted to go in for a nosey! The lady was lovely and let her try some out in a bowl of water. I let her choose two that came to a fiver, we had wanted this mega cool one that was multicoloured glittery magic! She gave us it for free I was so grateful! Yes. The wine is nearly done!

[justilou]

You Go Girl!!! Welcome to the beginning of your new, happier life!!!

[DisgraceToTheYChromosome]

Come on MNHQ, where's the Eowyn-stabbing-the-WitchKing-inna-face smiley? OP deserves several.

[Comtesse]

Dear OP - an epic day, yanbu!

[lostinabook]

Well done! Great treats too

[RhodaBorrocks]

You are totally winning OP! high five

[NotTheMrMenAgain]

Oh OP, well done! Bloody good for you, hold onto that strong feeling!

I had PTSD (birth trauma) and PND after birth of DD and the anxiety was crippling, I was almost phobic about DD crying in public. I wasn't driving at the time, and vividly remember the first time I was brave enough to take DD on the bus to my parents house by myself.

My DM met me in the garden and literally shrieked to my DF "NottheMrMen is here with the babby - she came on the BUS!". I think DM thought I'd left my (lovely) DH or something!

And after that first time I never looked back and it g easier each time. You'll be the same - you've done it once, you're on a roll now OP!

[Vulty]

I love you all for your lovely comments! I was worried I'd get accused of being an alkie, and I probably will now. I am having another bottle of wine, again OH isn't drinking. Today I have not been fucking winning. I was stressed out all morning, then OH locks us all out the flat. He waited a milisecond after shutting the door to ask if I have the keys. NO I DID NOT HAVE THE KEYS! We wre supposed to be going shopping and taking my DD to the farm. Peeking through the letterbox the cat is staring back, keys are like a meter away. Im shouting GO GET THE EFFING KEYS CAT! In my flat I have a loft and theres an entrance in the close, I sent him up only to discover it was blocked off and he then broke the wooden board that closes it over. I took my dd round to Mum and Dads and left him picking the lock. My neighbour came out with a lock picking kit. I don't even want to know why the fuck he has that. DD asks for babybel, so I go round to the shops for babybel, jump into the hair dressers for a fringe trim and grab myself a coffe. We eventually. 2 hours or so later managed to break in. And I got my shopping, plus a £2.69 bottle of wine-thank you aldi. Fuck this day.

[bearleftmonkeyright]

I locked myself out yesterday, it's extremely frustrating! My DP came home from work and broke in for me! I loved your post. I hope things continue to improve for you. You deserve a treat.