To be close to tears.

[PirateFairy45]

Since my grandpa died 7 weeks ago today it's been non stop at home. There's been one thing or another happening.

My own house is a state, I've been non stop with my daughter, trying to keep her happy. Doing fundraising for charity, clearing out my grandpas home, taking family here there and everywhere. Working part time and attempting to finish my college course off.

I'm tired. I mean, really tired.

I'm up at 4am (or earlier) daily with DD. And only fall asleep after 11 most nights, even though the last few nights I've been going to bed at 8pm to try and get an early night.

Really stressed out and can't seem to catch up with myself.

Still to finish the garden, clean my home properly, clear out my grandpas home and finish my college course. And all before the end of this month.

Sorry, more of a rant than anything my just needed to get it out.

[GrimmauldPlace]

First things first, stop! Sit down, have a cup of tea or coffee and calm down. You are going through a really tough time at the moment and are trying to do too much.

Once you've sat down can you make a list of what are the top priorities? I presume your college course is time restricted? Can you enlist help for the garden or clearing your grandpa's? You don't have to do everything at once all on your own.

[wheresthel1ght]

Different circs but I feel the same.

Be kind to yourself and remember you cannot do it all.

Start telling family no you can't take them places, get others to help with clearing the house, do you have help with your dd? A partner who can take turns with the early start?

[Udderz]

What can you say no to? The charity thing? Anything else?

[sandgrown]

You need to give yourself time to grieve. Leave any non essential stuff until later. Are there no relatives who can help with grandad' s house ? When my mum died my aunties came and helped empty the house and we laughed and cried together. Have you a partner who can help at home ? The garden and house can wait to be honest or could you afford to pay someone just this once. I would get the college course finished first . Try and find a little bit of down time. Good Luck.

[PosiePootlePerkins]

I am sorry for your loss. I agree with PPs, you need some support. You can't do all of this by yourself, its too much. If you have no relatives to help, did your Grandad have any friends or neighbours who would chip in? I find people are usually amazing if you reach out for support, you just need to ask!
You will get through this difficult time. Stay strong and look after yourself.

[PirateFairy45]

My mother is doing what she can in the house but she works full time.

There's no one else who can/will help.

In my home I have my DP but he's neither use nor ornament.

My dad is taking DD out for me for a couple hours while I catch up with housework.

Cleaned kitchen out in my grandpas, that's taken all morning. And now need to pack the car up with rubbish to take to the skip.

And then maybe I should get some breakfast... My stomach is making sounds like a Dragon!

[PosiePootlePerkins]

Just checked back in to your thread. You are doing really well with minimum support. I am sorry you are so alone in this. Please make sure you eat, you need to look after yourself too.

[PirateFairy45]

I'm eating to live. I had been working out and lost 15lbs so far. Which is good as I'm extremely overweight.

It's so tired constantly. I'm actually just about to climb into bed now to see if I can catch up on lost sleep.

Maybe will feel better if I actually get some sleep.

Sorry, just having a whine.

[PirateFairy45]

I'm eating to live. I had been working out and lost 15lbs so far. Which is good as I'm extremely overweight.

It's so tired constantly. I'm actually just about to climb into bed now to see if I can catch up on lost sleep.

Maybe will feel better if I actually get some sleep.

Sorry, just having a whine.

[Lorsaidthedean]

Are you able to get a house clearance company to do it for you? We did this with my mill's house. It cost about £250, and was worth every penny.

[LegstarPegstar]

Well done. You're doing so well. You absolutely need to prioritise your health and wellbeing now so try to slow down and do less. Taking a break and getting back on an even keel will help you be more productive and feel more In control. When I feel like this I absolutely have to prioritise sleep. I am just a nicer person and able to cope with way more than when I am completely drained. So it feels a bit selfish but so worth it!!

Good luck x