There is an awful lot to this complicated situation, I apologise for the length of the post but I'm trying to place everything into context.
I'm now 24 and have a brother (now 22) and both our parents are getting divorced. They officially split about 8 months ago but are now moving forward to make it legal and official. Mum left Dad after years of financially supporting him through several failed businesses and his refusal to suck it up and get a normal job.
The most recent business was a family one, which myself and my brother worked at. We chose to do this as the business was focused around an industry we had both studied and wanted to work long-term in and my Dad had previous experience running a successful business of this type. We all got on brilliantly and wanted to make something successful that would last for years. However, this decision lead to us all living under the same roof to save money and be more productive (my Dads suggestion) but the financial and emotional strain this situation placed on the family unit was almost incomprehensible. The business didn't take off as we had expected and although we were working our backsides off, we weren't even bringing enough home to cover mobile phone bills. It has since come out that my dad was paying other staff member wages but myself and my brother were expected to work for practically nothing as it 'would all be ours one day' and we had to take the rough with the smooth, 'the things most worth having are the ones you have to work hardest for' etc etc. It is worth mentioning that we were not partners or directors or anything like that in the company, just staff members who worked significantly more hours than anybody else. This inevitably lead to my Mum financially and emotionally supporting everyone, running the entire house and all its costs. Due to repeated bad luck (most of which wasn't actually my Dads fault) after 2 years this business folded with hardly any outstanding debt or complications and he was given an opportunity to start a fresh. God knows how, but although there were building tensions and serious strain had been placed on our a family, we somehow managed to survive it.
Fast forward a few months... Both myself and my brother got other jobs and started to support ourselves instead of having to rely on the family business to pay us fairly and honestly. This was when I moved in with my other half to a town 20 minutes or so away and began taking anti-depressants for my anxiety. My brother initially moved out but had a lot of problems with house-share and landlords and ended up having to move back in with parents temporarily. My Mum was pleading with my Dad to just get a normal job for a while, help to clear some of the personal debts she has accrued supporting all 4 of us for nearly 2 years and bring some normality back to the house and our lives.
This was when my Dad messed up big time.
He decided to re-do pretty much exactly the same business and business model again. The whole idea of what the business was meant to originally be (independent, family, tasteful) was what my Mum had supported in the first place. But now myself and my brother were out, he was doing this all on his own, his own way. The type of business is one that targets 18-30 years olds and requires an awful lot of social media presence (and most likely some 18-30 years old working there who understand the market!) Without that it would totally fail. This was one of the many roles I performed whilst working there, but now I wasn't anymore, how would he even get it off the ground? He had no money to pay anyone else to do it, he couldn't do it himself and he couldn't depend on me doing it for free anymore.
Fast forward another few months, my Dad has re-opened the business, its not making any money and my Mum is still paying for everything for the both of them. Final nail in the coffin came when she noticed he wasn't wearing his wedding ring - he claimed to have lost it and promised to get another but just never did. This was not a financial issue as both my brother and I offered to lend him the money to buy a new wedding band but he didn't take us up on it. His whole focus was now on the business which we'd left and I think as now weren't involved anymore he saw what we were doing as meddling instead of trying to be helpful. So my Mum left. She continued mortgage payment and water/electric payments on the house so my dad wasn't left homeless, but she moved in with friends.
Then Mum started seeing someone (an old friend of both parents) almost immediately - in fact I have strong feeling she was seeing him before she left my Dad. Although I do not know this man personally, he is strongly linked with my profession and the social circles and scenes in which I move locally, and I'm aware that my friends who have always known me as part of family unit have seen them out together, all over each other and acting like teenagers. He seems to make her happy but I've heard so many stories about this man - he doesn't have a good reputation around our area at all. She has now decided to make me her 'ally' - telling me all sorts of details about her new relationship and the relationship she had with my Dad that I've made clear I really don't want to know (financial, emotional, sexual - literally everything!) As we've never really been close, even though it is almost the only thing she speaks to me about I've not wanted to break what little connection we now have, even if its over something that makes me wildly uncomfortable.
Dad (57) has played the victim to both me and my brother since the split, and we have felt really bad for him and tried to support him - and I now see that we subconsciously 'took his side' because he was left on his own. But he has recently started going through what can only be described as a mid life crisis. He's out drinking all the time (never been a big drinker before), has started posting flirty photos of him on nights out on Facebook of girls my age and who I know kissing his cheek. And I've just found out he's been on several dates with one of my good friends ex girlfriend (in her late 20's). As he now thinks he's totally on his own, I have a very strong feeling this behaviour is only the beginning and will get worse very quickly.
This now means that both of parents love lives are entangled in my life, my social circles and the place which I call home, and the impact of the whole thing is really starting to effect my emotional wellbeing. I'm trying to be independent and get away from them and lead my own, normal life but it seems almost impossible.
I've stopped wanting to go out with my other half, when we do we can't go to the places we normally would as I'm worried that I will either bump into one of them with their new boyfriend/girlfriend. I hear stories and see things shared on social media that concern the two of them. I'm embarrassed as to what other people will think of me and my family. For years both parents were so keen to put on the show and let everyone know we were happy and solid and well off and now neither of them seem to care what other people think at all. Problem is, this is how I've been brought up and to see them both act so differently to to the values and morals they've taught me and my brother is just so confusing, painful, upsetting and embarrassing.
So much has happened and I can't change any of it. The hurt and pain they're causing to me and my brother is going to be so long-lasting and damaging and neither of them even realise it, they're just in their own worlds and expect us to 'get on with it'. Add into the mix that I have become very close with my other halves parents who are lovely people who have a happy, healthy marriage and support their kids magnificently. Due to this, I'm starting to hate spending time with either of my parents or even speaking to them on the phone. I can physically feel the resentment building as I'm talking to them and the understanding of their lack of care and consideration towards me and my brother it absolutely horrible. And I'm the luckier one as at least I'm not living in the house anymore, brother is still stuck there.
So.....the question is, do I cut off contact with them for a while? And if so how do I go about doing that? Do I simply ignore them and wait for them to get the message or do I write something down to explain how I'm feeling? They're not the most reasonable people and are both in weird places as it is anyway and I just have no idea what to do, but I know I can't carry on like this.
If you've managed to stick with this stupidly long thread until now, thank you so much and I would really appreciate your advice.
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totalblamblam1991 · 18/04/2016 16:56
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