Having one now and it helps to get this out.
I'm fine of course but just so scared this afternoon
I am literate and reasonably bright with good communication skills, but I also have a history of quite severe depression and other problems and manage a chronic pain condition. My employment history is patchy.
In my last job I once nearly threw myself off a building when stuck in a loop of childhood sexual abuse flashbacks. What employer wants that sort of person as an employee? None. Obviously they won't know that about me but I bet anyone who reads this who is responsible for hiring and firing people is privately thinking I'm unemployable.
I'm so much better now and I want to be a brilliant employee because I want to have a good career and I hope it's not too late. But I'm scared, scared of never making anything of myself and scared of the Job Centre staff and if I get sanctioned.
Fuck. Sorry for the verbal diarrhoea.
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To ask if anyone else gets moments of sheer brutal terror when trying to find a job?
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PanicNotAtTheDisco · 24/10/2015 18:19
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