having terrible anxiety aibu to think this is antenatal depression- please help

[sangfreude]

I'm 35 weeks preg and regularly can't sleep for worry. I m sure I had pnd last time and I think I might have antenatal depression now. I am anxious all the time, can't stop worrying. Dh suffers from seasonal depression and is not working, yest eve he was crying at one point, shouting at another.
We have been rowing a lot and I'm totally paranoid the neighbours can hear us- we live rurally and although we are in a detached cottage and they are over 50 foot away I am so worried and embarassed.

I really felt suicidal a couple of days ago, I had to go to a and e because of fainting, dh was totally unsympathetic and said I was making it all up. I've been to the doc and told mw how I've been feeling, not a great deal of help. Feel very alone and scared.

[sanityisamyth]

Have you got anyone in RL to be with you or stay with? Your hormones will be royally fucked which will be making everything very difficult. I think it's totally possible that you're depressed (whether pregnancy/baby related or just "normal") and your DH should be supporting you, especially now.

Keep talking on here if it helps but I hope you feel better soon x

[TheCowThatLaughs]

Your dh sounds horrible. Is he usually like that?
The neighbours definitely won't be able to hear you from that distance btw.

[fatpony]

You poor thing, that sounds awful. I think you need to insist your gp/me takes this seriously so that you can get help before the baby arrives. Have you tried an impartial helpline for advice/comfort? You could try the PANDAS one (just google), they are great and might suggest ways to get your GP to take this seriously.

[socksandsandles]

Hi there. In the past I have had both antenatal and postnatal depression with severe anxiety. Feel for you. Think there are two issues here. Firstly, your dh is verging on abusive. Secondly, yes it does sound like antenatal anxiety and the sooner you seek help the better. You need to think of yourself and the baby at the moment. Agree with above. Staying elsewhere would be best atm. Also spk to Dr and midwife x

[fatpony]

Also is there any possibility of going to stay with a relative/friend for a few days as it sounds like your partner is making things much worse and you might benefit from a small break from each other?

[Stripylikeatiger]

You poor thing :( your neighbours won't be able to hear you but it sounds like a horrible situation.

Have you had your iron levels checked recently? I had really bad dizziness at about the same stage of pregnancy and also a feeling of dread/doom I had quite low iron levels and once I started taking iron tablets I felt much better.

[sangfreude]

Thank you for posts

Been on the phone to Samaritans bit calmer. Helps to hear I'm not alone. Yes dh can be abusive when in a depressive phase. Very difficult to cope with. Thanks for reassurance on neighbours, it really worries me so much. Not very reasonable I know.

[sangfreude]

Iron levels checked, it's low bp and I think stress

[sangfreude]

I've actually gone back to work to get away from dh instead of taking maternity leave, no no one I could feasibly stay with.