After a good couple of months I have started smoking again. I hate it but I keep going back time and time again.
I now waiting for DH to go to sleep so I can have another cigarette and I feel like a lying cheating wife.
For a few weeks now I have felt really stressed and had panic attacks but for some reason when I have a cigarette I feel calmer and normal.
I did so well, but now today I have had 5.
Why am I so pathetic that I keep going back to something that has no benefit for me, my bank balance, my home life and will probably ruin my marriage.
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SmokingInSecret · 04/09/2014 00:10
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