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To think that I am just pathetic

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suchawimp Wed 03-Jul-13 20:12:47

and it isn't normal to be like this at 26.

I did something wrong at work and have to tell my manager tomorrow. I feel sick and am shaking and going hot and cold - I just can't seem to deal with stuff like this. It just makes me feel small and useless.

I don't know what she will say but it won't be nice. I hate being told off and really hate confrontation and raised voices. I don't know why and it is pathetic I know.

Is there a way to toughen up and get over this sort of thing?

theodorakisses Mon 08-Jul-13 16:21:42

anyone who feels scared, unless are being manipulative weirdos would not have posted this, I would rather make a fool of myself with a troll than not support a real person

PrettyKitty1986 Mon 08-Jul-13 14:31:30

Tbh I think the manager is getting a tough deal here.

The op said she 'did something wrong' at work. People seem to be interpreting that as she made a mistake.

For all we know the 'something wrong' could be bordering on gross misconduct. In which case, removing privelages (such as the ops course) could be the best way to go for the manager.

I don't see how people can possibly comment in the Seth they have with such limited information really.

theodorakisses Mon 08-Jul-13 14:20:25

Please report back, I hope it goes ok

weisswusrt Mon 08-Jul-13 14:03:25

Can you turn it back on her?
Her "You screwed up"
You "yes, I'm sorry. How should I handle situations like this in future"

She is paid to manage people after make her come up with some answers!

DoubleLifeIsALifeHalved Mon 08-Jul-13 11:44:32

Ouch, nasty reaction from your manager... Hope today is bearable

shewhowines Mon 08-Jul-13 09:31:46

I think it's normal to feel like that. I know I have in the past. I think it's worse because she sounds a nightmare boss.

I know it's easy to say and harder to feel - but it is only a job. You are so much more than the sum total of one job. What feels like the end of the world right now, will fade into insignificance soon.

I don't believe there is a person alive who has never cocked up big time at some point or another.

Hope today goes well

froubylou Mon 08-Jul-13 09:30:57

Op, my grandfather used to say to my ma 'worse things happen at sea'.

And although it sounds trite he was right.

You made a mistake. It happens. Use it to become better at your job. I've been there. I left a set of safe keys on my desk. Safe was emptied over night. 3k was never seen again though the keys were returned helpfully to my desk by morning. I got a huge bollocking. But my boss at the time backed me up to head office and put his own job on the line to help me keep mine.

For that I worked harder for him than anyone else I have ever worked for before and my loyalty to him saw ud both shoot up the ladder far quicker than anyone would have believed and even 10 years on I still class him as a friend even though I left the company.

Use it to be a better manager than yours is now. A manager is only as good as the team they have and getting the very best out of all kinds of people isn't something you can learn on a course.

And make sure you are organised for today. You have had some fantastic advice on here. If your manager is passing the book then let her. Request the meeting withher mmanager alone. You will be better thought of in the long run and it will give her something to stew over.

theodorakisses Mon 08-Jul-13 09:24:56

I don't think confrontation and raised voices is acceptable, no wonder you are upset. I would be devastated if people felt like that about me. I recently had someone make an error with a booking that meant production was delayed by 12 hours which cost a lot of money. Nobody shouted, we have insurance and they came to us as soon as they realised they had forgotten to do it. What do you do? Fire them? Shout? In my company that would be seen as completely unacceptable. If things do get nasty, maybe keep a note of what was said or take someone in with you. Good luck.

imademarion Mon 08-Jul-13 09:06:37

sucha, was The Bad Thing something you had received training on? Who gave you the training if so?

Unless you have behaved in an illegal, immoral or deliberately unprofessional manner, your manager should be taking some responsibility for this situation.

Excellent post from dacky re documenting.

When cock-ups (inevitably) happen, I always look for the following in my staff:
1. Immediately bringing it to my attention
2. The facts and the sequence of events
3. Where appropriate, an apology and recognition if responsibility
4. (Most important) A desire to learn and use the experience to improve systems or service and sometimes even share the lessons with colleagues (unless this is too distressing)

Everybody fucks up at work. It's the law. What matters now is taking the emotional heat out of it and getting some perspective.

And maybe some help so you don't feel so awful and sick the next time.

As your boss, I'd feel ashamed that an employee felt like that.

Dackyduddles Mon 08-Jul-13 08:28:37

Agree with mummy to Katie too

Dackyduddles Mon 08-Jul-13 08:27:33

How you doing op? You should post this in employment issues. There's various excellent hr professionals and legals who can (tie that bitch of a manager in knots) really advise you well.

Def write down everything that's happened this far with dates & times and witnesses. Print out all policies relevant to this situation. Ask them to be clear which policies or procedure you have broken. I'm not suggesting fighting as if you are completely innocent just ensuring that you are treated fairly and equally as would anyone else in similar position in your team.

Good luck

Thepursuitofhappiness Mon 08-Jul-13 08:16:33

Hope it goes okay today OP and hope you managed to enjoy the sunshine this weekend without worrying.

I can be very like you, I've always felt the weight of responsibility in my jobs and lost sleep countless times about stuff I've done/not done. Without exception none of those times were worth the stress and work always copes.

Good luck.

ilovesooty Mon 08-Jul-13 01:47:40

I just want to wish you good luck for today.

MummytoKatie Sun 07-Jul-13 03:19:38

Manage - not sure where abate came from!

MummytoKatie Sun 07-Jul-13 03:11:05

I abate staff. If they do something wrong and there is comeback then it is my fault and my problem because I manage the team.

My boss feels the same about my cock ups!

Oopla Sat 06-Jul-13 23:08:17

I think you're ace. How much sadder to be telling folk " you're on to own if the shit hits the fan" honestly like this is your real life !

Times like this you look a tbyour manager and realise you could do the job 100 times better. * very long lingering meaningful look at OP*

ghosteditor Fri 05-Jul-13 08:12:08

Wow. Well done you on taking the responsible first step.

Your manager sounds shite, to be frank. I'm a manager and the people who report to me are my responsibility. If they make a mistake, it's ultimately my responsibility to fix and figure out why it happened. And tbh I make damn sure that there isn't a culture of recrimination and fear which leads to stress and more mistakes.

Right now you need to address the issue at hand. If your manager is allowed to land this all on you then her managers aren't worth their salt either. Seriously - can you look for a new job? No one should have to live with this level of fear.

Like others have said though, this isn't just about the present situation. Have you considered some CBT or, possibly more appropriately here, some professional coaching? I've had three sessions with a coach and have common leaps and bounds with professional confidence. And they were very personal issues we discussed and which were holding me back.

Good luck.

FayKnights Thu 04-Jul-13 23:54:53

A good manager would back you to the hilt, she sounds terrible.

ExitPursuedByABear Thu 04-Jul-13 22:28:14


Crumbledwalnuts Thu 04-Jul-13 22:27:13

All too predictable unfortunately. That's often how people become managers. OP would never have been so terrified if she hadn't known, inside, that this is how she'd be.

ExitPursuedByABear Thu 04-Jul-13 21:08:23

How dreadful. Not sure what industry you are in but your manager should be there to support you, not hang you out to dry.

SugarPasteGreyhound Thu 04-Jul-13 21:01:31

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

Crumbledwalnuts Thu 04-Jul-13 20:38:29

think of David Nicolson. Hundreds of people died on his watch. What does he do ? He brazens it out.

Crumbledwalnuts Thu 04-Jul-13 20:36:53

yes Sooty is right. Make this manager feel nervous herself. Make contemporaneous notes of the meeting you had today as well - do it now, write it all down.

ilovesooty Thu 04-Jul-13 20:27:51

Is this meeting on Monday a formal meeting? If so you should be advised of the issues in writing and be given the opportunity of being accompanied by a union rep or a friend. I don't want to worry you but I'd give serious consideration to having someone with you to record the meeting for accuracy.

And any manager leaving you to fret like that until Monday is a bully.

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