I have been back a work for a few months following mat leave and am at the latter end of a long stint of depression . I suffer anxiety which has become huge since having dcs and although the depression is abating the anxiety symptoms are still prevalent.
I work in a large office in a high pressured public facing job. I struggle with talking to groups and feel very 'exposed' in my role. I blush constantly, flaring up at the slightest thing, or the thought that somebody may say something challenging or embarrassing.
I live in a very small town and most days one of our customers is somebody I know which makes me feel jittery and everyday chats with colleagues can cause me to well up and it's not uncommon for a tricky subject to bring me to tears. I have been having counselling and taking meds which is why a lot of the symptoms have abated but the panic/anxiety/embarrassment symptoms remain.
I feel like such a fool, I recently had to reapply for my own job where I was a sweating, stammering, beetroot mess, I feel like the worlds biggest idiot and I dread to think what people say about me behind my back.
My boss is very understanding but she is leaving and being replaced by a man who I don't know, I also struggle to hold it together in conversation outside of work but work is where this is really affecting me.
I guess I'd like to ask you honest aibu-ers what do you really think when you see someone blushing?
And what do you think of women who cry at work?
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anxiousmess · 12/05/2013 09:23
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