To be so tired I could cry?

[BlackMini]

I'm tired to the core. I've been in pain since before Christmas and am still being treated by my GP. I have begged and begged to get referred to the hospital, but there is a process to follow apparently and it is slow. I've had an ultrasound and when I spoke to a registrar friend and laughed saying it was useless for my complaint, and suprise suprise it showed nothing. I had to wait a month for that scan.

I've started a new job and have had to do a lot of driving halfway up the country. I also drive a lot in my day to day job. Today I have come within a cats whisker of crashing and it has been the same most days. Stupid mistakes but I just can't react in time.

I don't know what to do. I can't take time off as I don't get any sick leave yet and I will simply lose my job. My house is a mess because I don't even have the energy to tidy (I've always been very house proud).

I'm at my wits end. I have lost so much weight because I dont even cook for myself anymore. I sound so pathetic!

[BlackMini]

It's not lack of sleep either. I've been getting 10 hours a night!!!