I'm 6 days post ELCS and have a beautiful new baby boy (DC3) to look after. I'm feeling a tad over emotional at the moment due to not having DH around.
In the 7 or so years we've been a couple DH and I have spent a lot of time together. We were (I still am) students at uni. DH changed courses a year after I met him and had a year off in all that time too due to depression, so he only finished uni last year and started looking for a job straight away. He was offered a job before Christmas but only started at the beginning of February due to waiting on dates for training courses.
Before I had DS last week, I took over the school run and had Uni to attend, so generally the days seemed to fly by as DH was on training from Monday - Fridays. He started his proper hours this week and works Tuesday - Saturday, with the Saturday being the half day. He didn't really get to spend much time at the hospital at all and was working the day of ELCS so I took DM in with me.
I've been home since Saturday afternoon and life is so much more hectic now. I feel like I've hardly seen DH at all, even though he had his day off Monday. DD2 was off nursery ill so he spent the majority of the day with her and then did the school run for DD1. So we're literally talking from yesterday. He's been up and getting DDs ready for school/nursery and off to work and then not home until around 6pm, when he's come in and cooked tea, tidied up, we've all eaten and he's given DDs a bath and got them ready for bed whilst I've fed DS. The time just seems to vanish and then it's bed time. Last night was the first night he slept in bed with me as he's been sleeping in the spare bed and coming in when DS has woken to pass him to me so I can breastfeed him. I'm not as mobile as I'd like to be at the moment due to ELCS and still having SPD.
I think it's only just really hit me that this is our life from now on. And everything seems so busy. I was never like this before, I feel so clingy at the moment. I think my hormones probably have a large part to play in a of this. I know I should just be relishing and enjoying the time with DS at the moment but I just can't shake feeling quite emotional and alone...does that sound completely bonkers? I'm really missing DH and I just don't know what to do with myself. Time seems to drag. His work have been fantastic and have offered him paternity leave which will be for 2 weeks starting at the end of march. I'm really looking forward to this.
Sorry for the long self absorbed post, I just really needed to get this out as its really been eating me up!
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EricNorthmansFangBanger · 27/02/2013 11:13
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