Utterly devastated that I picked up a drink after doing so well. I went out made a fool of myself, fell over and twisted my ankle badly, am covered in cuts and bruises and ended up sleeping with someone I picked up when I was out.
I can’t believe I’ve done this again, I’m so ashamed of myself I want to die. I keep letting everyone down. My family are so angry with me and I feel like a failure as a mother and daughter.
I don’t know how to come back from this, I’m so tired of fighting what feel
Like a loosing battle, I’m tired of being depressed and I’m just tired of everything. The only thing that keeps me going is my beautiful Children who deserve a better mummy (they are never around when I drink). I do keep thinking everyone would be better off if I just ended it all, I’m causing my mum In particular so much stress and she keeps having to pick up the pieces when I have a drinking episode. I just don’t know what to do anymore, it just feels all so hopeless.
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Alcohol support
Relapsed after 9 weeks sober
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recoveringmummy · 06/11/2017 08:59
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