For gods sake I thought it would get easier and its not

[listsandbudgets]

At the end of last July I discovered that alcohol and my new long term medication DO NOT MIX. Honestly I don't think I've ever been so ill. I gave up drinking the next morning and haven't touched a drop since July 24th.

It hasn't stopped me wanting it though. Christmas was hard. Going out with friends is hard. Stressful situations are hard. Sitting down in the evenings without a glass of wine isn't easy.

Its made me realise I was probably dependent. I miss it but I know the damage it will do to me if I start again.

Got lots of lovely drinks to try and replace it - mainly the tessiere syrups in various flavours, lots of different flavoured teas, diet coke and when desperate becks blue etc. etc..... but they are not hitting the mark.

Honestly everything has me reaching for the wine not helped by the fact dp drinks so its in the house... how the hell do I carry on giving up? About to go on holiday which will be a whole new challange :(

[Heebejeebees]

Honestly, you're torturing yourself thinking you're missing out. Join AA and realise you're not at all xxx

[Heebejeebees]

And I don't mean that patronisingly. I have several friends in AA and or NA, they are not tortured or missing out or craving like you from what i understand. Spin your head/ thoughts right around. Best of luck xx

[Broken11Girl]

Oh love
I should give up really, on meds too and hate insomnia, but then struggling to get up and feeling like crap half the day.
Impressed you've stopped for 8 months, think how good a year sober will feel.