I know I have been on here before and explained my worries at not bonding with my DS. I know lots of you are struggling but I am so worried that I'm doing so badly at the 'faking it until you make it' bit. I'm struggling every minute to fake it. I'm not even sure I am faking it.
We have had 2 sibling brothers since January. Bonding with younger DS (4) no probs but older one (7) is such a struggle. I am worried that I am doing more harm than good.
DH and I are very experienced with traumatised children and are used to being hit and screamed at in our day to day jobs. We fully expected it from adopted children. However, the shock of 2 fully fledged lads upon our lives-- probably not that prepared!
DS1 is extremely controlling and manipulative. He wants our attention/attachment all the time and although I am generally keeping calm and am playing with him. A lot of what we say is quite therapeutic I think and we are trying hard every day. But the bottom line is- he irritates the fuck out of me. The guilt is horrendous and every day I pledge to do better but I have no energy.
Has all come to a bit of a head today as he soiled at school. He does have issues with toilet ing. Part of me thinks that the behaviours are testing us now that we are more settled and in routines but I am worried that he knows how I feel and that I am doing more damage than good.
I kind of need to know if this level of un attachment on my part is normal but I also wonder if family therapy would be useful in this situation?
Thank you in advance x
Here are some suggested organisations that offer expert advice on adoption.
Adoption
Struggling to 'fake it.....'
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