Hello all,
I am really struggling with what’s happened to my career.
Quick overview (I am in the humanities): sailed through education (highest first at Oxbridge, distinctions, passed viva with no corrections), have been very successful at getting postdoctoral fellowships after PhD (think two things like British Academy and a shorter but quite prestigious one). I have a good publication record ( 7 years post PhD I have 6 peer reviewed journal articles, two of which in top journals which I had previously been told would be career making, an edited collection, a monograph with a good UP coming out this year, another in consideration elsewhere, as well as working on a third). I have extensive teaching experience (albeit not at super prestigious unis) including setting up and teaching on a MA. Oh, and I have had two children as well!
Despite all this, I am just not getting shortlisted for permanent lectureships.I have had people look over my applications and I am told they are good.
I think this lack of success if mostly due to my specialism which js both very theoretical and extremely interdisciplinary; but there is not a lot I can do to correct this. Having children (hence not being very flexible location wise and not being able to produce work at the same rate as before) also does not help.
My fellowship ends this year, I have lined up some casual teaching for after, so financially I will be ok. But I just cannot help feeling so disappointed that this is where I am at after all the hard work I have put in.
I also feel a bit bitter (I am ashamed to say) when I see other people with far less good CVs succeed. Or when I see people with connections or proper institutional support (which I did not have, my supervisor basically has washed her hands off me even before I graduated) get permanent jobs.
I am going to stay in the job market one more round (hoping that REF will play in my favour) but then realistically I am going to not be competitive for research heavy positions anymore, because of all the adjuncting I will have to do to stay in the game.
I am not sure what I am hoping for in terms of responses. Perhaps, how do I get over feeling like such a failure?
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Academic common room
I feel like such a failure
39 replies
shmivorytower · 05/06/2019 10:41
OP posts:
Don’t want to miss threads like this?
Weekly
Sign up to our weekly round up and get all the best threads sent straight to your inbox!
Log in to update your newsletter preferences.
You've subscribed!
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.