I have quite bad anxiety, maybe OCD and I have been trying to tackle it on my own by reading self-help books - the books that the NHS recommends (usually CBT-based) not just random wishy washy self-help.
My anxiety is mainly health anxiety and contamination fears. I managed to make a lot of progress in making myself stop some of the hand washing and I felt like I was making a lot of progress. However this morning I had a really bad "flare up" (not sure how to describe it) of anxiety and I ended up having to cancel my plans because of it.
Everytime I think about going to the GP I just start crying, I physically cannot get the words out. I am a really private person and haven't told anyone about my anxiety, not even my parents or best friends. I feel a lot of embarrassment and shame. I don't like being the centre of attention so the idea of sitting with a GP or doing talking therapy where the focus is on me and my behaviour and thoughts just seems unbearable. I could maybe cope with going to the GP if I could just get medication but I live with my parents and they would find out. I think because this has built up so much that having to talk about it is just too overwhelming, it's not like I can say "oh I have just been a bit anxious lately, that's all", it is much more than that.
I know mental health is nothing to be ashamed about. My sister and my best friend have anxiety so they would understand as would my parents. I have no idea why I feel like this.
Sorry I don't even have a specific question, just wondering if anyone else has experienced this?
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Too nervous/ashamed to go to the GP about anxiety
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ocdmaybe · 05/10/2020 13:32
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