How do I stop myself from being so stabby?

[DanglySpider]

Ok, so at the end of 2018 I was diagnosed with a small brain aneurysm - there's very little chance of it rupturing (like, 1%) but I was told 'no coffee, no smoking, no alcohol, and losing weight will help.' I am very overweight, but am not a massive drinker, had long already given up the fags when it happened, but I was thriving on coffee, especially because we have two dcs with significant SEND.

Lockdown has not been awful for us, other than having the dcs here 24/7. DH and I did both pile on the pounds at the beginning of lockdown, so we're now trying to get it off (again). We'd had amazing success with a VLCD and lost 4 stone each a few years ago, but have put it all on again through crap eating - and I can't exercise because I have a connective tissue disease. I have never been able to lose weight through healthy eating because I have to eat so little (i'm very short) that I end up malnourished no matter how careful I am.

Yesterday I had my first trip out on my own for about 3 hours to have a socially distanced business meeting, which I thought would clear my stabbiness. I'm now well over a month overdue for my period (and no, not pg, took a test just in case). But I am just so angry all the time. Tired, cranky, hungry, can't have ANYTHING to eat or drink that's vaguely effective at helping me to stay awake, or lift my mood. To top it all off I have a mild toothache from a tooth that needs root canal that I am just trying to hang on to through lockdown, as they would only pull it out at the moment.

And I'm starting to lose my patience with DC1. Admittedly we did just catch him trying to let out DC2, knowing that DC2 is a runner, and would just run away. I think I'm just lockdown fatigued - not even 80 calorie ice-cream is doing anything for me. Any tips?

[SurreyHillsGirl]

Are you able to do some yoga? It’s so good for stress / anger / frustration. There are loads of free vids on YouTube. You can simply search for ‘yoga for stress’, etc. and lots will come up. Adriene is particularly good, she has a video entitled ‘yoga for when you’re angry’ !

[SurreyHillsGirl]

I did note you said you can’t exercise by the way, I just wondered if that included gentle movement like I’ve suggested.

[WashYourFins]

There's a podcast on Audible, which is currently free for members, called Meditations. I found the "Release Tension" one surprisingly effective. I liked the bit where you had two minutes to focus on the stuff stressing you out - two minutes of focused rrrrargh was actually quite useful - and then the usual deep breathing, relaxing stuff. Actually fell asleep before the end which is unheard of.

Failing that loud rock music on headphones for a bit of catharsis?

[Apolloanddaphne]

I like to drive whilst singing along to music at the top of my voice. It makes me feel so much better. I also find a brisk walk helps. It can be at whatever pace you can manage.

[MrsJemimaDuck]

It sounds silly, but are you getting enough healthy fat in your diet? Even if you are, fat is very satiating, and a little philadelphia or something like that on a cracker might help you pull through when you’re feeling this way.