Thanks for your messages of support re my private consultation appointment yesterday morning.
The good news is that they scanned me and said I had one great looking corpus luteum and a great uterine lining, so definitely ovulated. Af was due yesterday or today, but not arrived yet, but still bfn.
They have offered to do follicle tracking for the next cycle and then we can decide whether to continue with further follicle tracking or to stop the clomid have a couple of month off and if no bfp we can try IVF.
Only thing is, the Dr concluded with try to just BD all month long and not focus on timing too much.
I told him I can’t do that as BD has become a chore and I don’t enjoy it anymore. His response was to try and remember what it was like when we first met (not really helpful). Then once we left, DP tried to reiterate it and we ended up arguing most of the day because he said that clearly me tracking everything hasn’t helped us, so maybe taking a break from it will help. I ended up in tears for most of the day.
I told him that when TTC DD I initiated it every time and he rejected me a lot, and it’s made me not want to do it anymore as I feel like I’m throwing myself at him.
He said how can he initiate anything knowing that I don’t want to do it (I did say if I’m not close to ovulation I don’t want to do it).
So now we’re just on tenterhooks, plus Af still isn’t here 17dpo based on fertility friend, but BBT has dropped a little more today, so maybe my dates are a little off.