sitting in the doctors and panicking :-(

[VelmaD]

Sitting in a two hour wait to see a doctor. No kids today, no work, hence coming and not waiting to try and get my gp this week.

I am shitting it.

Boyfriend and I have been together since last summer. All very happy and healthy etc

Spent last weekend together. Lots of sex. Oral and penetrative. we have a lot of oral sex tbh.

I got sore (not unusual tbh) but by yesterday was still bad. Got thrush treatment. Nothing has changed.

Only I now have a sore patch which has split by my perinium (sp?) and two or three blister spots.

I am crapping my pants. Google is not my friend.

Two hour wait is not helping.

He is also out of the country till next week with bad signal (though have text a couple of bits)

I've caught something haven't I? But neither of us have any visible symptoms of anything, and we have been careful with past partners etc.

ah man, it is taking all of my effort not to cry in the waiting room or walk out. Been half hour, only ninety minutes to go. Or walk out. :-(

[sallysparrow157]

Well done for being sensible and booking an appointment. Don't worry, it could be something as straightforward as a small skin infection from a bit of trauma from sex which just needs a dose of antibiotics. Whatever it is, you're better off getting it sorted than going home and staying sore and on the off chance it is an std then you can both get sorted and all will be well xx

[RevoltingPeasant]

Don't walk as not getting it seen to will not make it go away.

Hang on in there.

[VelmaD]

Thank you. I honestly dont know whether I want to throw up or cry more right now.

I am very sensitive down there anyway, can't use any kind of chemicals ever, so it could be a reaction I guess.

And I admit this is the first time in years ive looked with a mirror.

Had a swab and coil check two months ago due to discharge and my lovely doctor said everything was good and healthy.

So now im worrying.

And im really worrying about how this could affect boyfriend and I too I admit.

[MILLYmo0se]

Oh it's much more likely to be an after-effect of too much sex ( sometimes there is such a thing !) than an STD . And even if it is, it will need to be treated regardless so hang on in there.
You poor thing, for what it's worth I think you are being incredibly brave and sensible going in by yourself and getting it sorted so quickly. I know I'd be a 'head-in-the-sand-writhing-in-pain-ostritch' unless I collapsed or something.

[VelmaD]

The blister like spots are what worried me - but they're two or three single ones, not clusters?

I would be normaly head in sand. I still want to be tbh. But its painful and I can't relax now - went out for dinner last night and was thinking about it constantly. Barely slept. And I have so much stuff to do.

I just feel so stupid. Im over 30 with kids fgs. I shouldn't be here :-(

[WaitMonkey]

Don't leave. Hope your seen soon and get sorted.

[LegArmpits]

I had very similar. C

[LegArmpits]

Balls.
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[LegArmpits]

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[LegArmpits]

Convinced myself it was herpes. Turned out to be infected shaving rash (and an inability to type, more recently...)

[VelmaD]

Legarmpits, that is my clinging hope. I have never shaved myself as much as recently as I've been basically single (apart from two short things) in four years. Now boyfriend met the kids and sleeps over we see each other a lot, so I shave a lot. Im clinging to that.

text boyfriend to say I was coming here and worrying myself and he's replied saying he's sure its nothing, ive done the right thing coming and he's thinking of me with kisses. So im a bit less worried about that now.

I feel stupid because i didnt realise until googling how easily things can be caught through oral sex. Even when the other person has no symptoms :-/

[VelmaD]

Ah man, ive just thought. Im on my own, its a skeletal clinic. Could the doctor refuse to examine me?

I dont care about chaperones etc, but what if doctor does?

[VelmaD]

Though my last examination was just me and gp two months ago, so I should be ok shouldn't I?

Its been 90 minutes now. Thank fuck for a full battery and mumsnet.

[Shonajoy]

If he thought he'd given you something I doubt he'd be sending supportive texts. Good luck that sounds so painful.x

[VelmaD]

I think he would be aghast if hes given me something - we both entered this thinking we were clean. If I have caught something it would have to be from oral sex (which neither of us have really done with previous partners and from googling is a real possibility)

in five minutes I would have been waiting two hours. Brought work to do, but haven't been able to concentrate, been on my mobile on here instead. But have been suitably distracted. And feeling a little braver.

[Normalisavariantofcrazy]

You can catch herpes but not show signs for decades

[VelmaD]

Really Norma? And would it not show up on swabs/ smears/ tests in that time?

[Iworrymyselftosleep]

Velma I hope you're seen soon. If its nothing serious you'll feel so much better for knowing and if its something that needs treatment then you're getting it treated nice and quickly.

Here while you wait...

[Normalisavariantofcrazy]

Nope. Only shows up when you have active sores to have swabbed

[VelmaD]

Thanks worry. I've not eaten or drunk anything today. Which is mad in itself when I normally drink likes fish, the kettle is the first point of call in the morning usually!

I think there's one person in front of me?

[Sallycinnamum]

It could also be really severe thrush OP. There's a name for it which I can't remember off the top of my head but its the most severe form of thrush and looks like herpes.

I had it in my 20s and I still shudder at the panic I felt.

[VelmaD]

Ah, so we could have had checks and still had it and not known? That in a weird way makes me feel better. Like its neither of our faults.

Sally I did have an episode like that before that was thrush, I thought I had pid or cancer or something now you mention it.

Person who booked in straight in front of me just been called.

Fight or flight kicking in.

[woodmouse2]

Keep breathing. You're nearly there.

[VelmaD]

Im absolutely shaking.

[notapizzaeater]

Stay and fight, it's better knowing than worrying and have to come back again