I agree flouncy I would be cheesed off in your position too. Have thee a low day it's allowed. And tbh we all need a low day sometimes as life can be tough. Much better than bottling. 
A much more positive call with work. They said that once a month wouldn't suit them but what could I offer. So I made a suggestion and said I would be keen for them to put something to me. Sounds like they are a bit overloaded.
They also told me that there has, of late, been some need at the organisation that is the European club looking after all organisations like ours from each European Country so I have to phone them next week. My boss said if there was a space there they could see if it would work as a secondment so I would be on The same Ts and Cs. This would be good as they are used to people be being at home or flying off somewhere from that organisation.
I see this as a bit of a back track. Not got it sorted, but seem to have a bit more of a plan.
Feeling v slightly less scared.
But only slightly.
( not
yet)
chasing hope your theory test has been ok! today wasn't it? How is your quest for gainful employment coming on?