Love, like starlight, never dies... Our precious children sparkling in the sky xx

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CazandBelle Tue 28-Jun-11 11:13:46

"Small was feeling grim and dark. He was playing toss and fling and bang and crash. Break and snap and bash and batter. Small said “I’m a grim and grumpy little small and nobody loves me at all”. “Oh Small,” said Large. “Grumpy or not, I’ll always love you no matter what.”

Small said, “If I was a grizzly bear would you still love me would you still care?” “Of course,” said Large “bear or not, I’ll always love you no matter what.”

Small said “But if I turned into a bug, would you still love me and give me a hug?” “Of course,” said Large “bug or not, I’ll always love you no matter what.”

“No matter what?” said Small, and smiled, “What if I was a crocodile?” Large said “I’d hug you close and hold you tight and tuck you up in bed at night”.
“Does love wear out” said Small, “does it break or bend? Can you fix it, stick it, does it mend?” “Oh help,” said Large “I’m not that clever I just know I’ll love you forever”.

Small said “but what about when you’re dead and gone, would you love me then, does love go on?” Large held Small snug as they looked out at the night, at the moon in the dark and the stars shining bright.

“Small look at the stars – how they shine and glow, but some of those stars died a long time ago. Still they shine in the evening skies. Love, like starlight, never dies”.

NO MATTER WHAT by Debi Gliori

Missing my beautiful Belle, a year to the day we placed her to bed in her garden. Mummy and Daddy love you, always. To the moon and back xxx

wonderfultykes Tue 28-Jun-11 11:29:26

Oh my goodness I am so sorry, what a beautiful story, Debi Gliori always gets it right.

Beautiful new thread Caz - I tried reading that to my grandson but had to stop half way through.

'but some of those stars died a long time ago' Remembering my 7month old twin boy - Gareth (1982) and my third son Matthew (1992) - my wonderful stars who died a long time ago.

xxxxxxx

Forever and ever and ever in my heart xxx

FlubbaBubba Tue 28-Jun-11 11:45:39

Much love and sympathy to all of you suffering bereavement of LOs, however near or long ago.

janedoe25 Tue 28-Jun-11 11:50:37

Beautiful thread caz.

remembering my baby girl Zoe who was born asleep at 41 weeks. Four months ago today i said hello and goodbye, sleep tight Zoe bear Mummy Loves you so much. x

Charleymouse Tue 28-Jun-11 11:56:56

Morning ladies
Hope you are all well.
Love Charleymouse xxx

I read it to my DD yesterday as my copy with the right words arrived yesterday. I normally translate English books into Dutch, but this one I had to read in English.
She loved it and hugged me close while reading it!

CazandBelle Tue 28-Jun-11 12:03:17

I've just been blogging about Belle's funeral and listened to Belle's music and the tears are streaming. Her Daddy carried her back up her aisle to this before we made our way to the cemetery. I'm sorry for the video of babies attached (can't find another), but this is Stargazer by Hawes

Really hurting today. It feels like only yesterday we gave her perfect little body to the ground and her soul to God.

Oh Caz that song is absolutely wonderful!
Big hugs!

lavandes Tue 28-Jun-11 13:51:54

Thankyou for the lovely new thread caz. We have all been through so much together. I will never forget the love and support I have been given from you all. xx

Remembering Richard ,our beloved son, dad and brother. We love and miss you so much but you will live on forever in our hearts. xx

Remembering Scarlett Niamh, born sleeping at 37 weeks, nearly 7 months ago. Always in our hearts and minds. We love you and miss you xxx

peterpansmum Tue 28-Jun-11 14:11:32

The most perfect thread title Caz, thank you. Remembering my beautiful Gregor. Why this book means so much to me and my family
Thinking of you all xxx

frasersmummy Tue 28-Jun-11 14:13:18

thanks for the new thread caz... its such a hard day for you and yet you found time to create our new sanctuary so thank you

I hope today passes peacefully for you ...

God bless all 3 of you

I'm thinking about having a necklace pendant done with Sterre's 12 week scan pic, want 'Love, like starlight, never dies' on the back of it, but fear it will be too long sad

Necklace like this but round

Thanks for the thread caz.

Remembering my Bobbie. Love you, for always xx

Minione Tue 28-Jun-11 16:43:09

Thanks Caz for starting this thread and I hope today goes as peacefully as it can for you and Jon x

Malachy Aidan, my first born, I think of you everyday and will love you always xx

CazandBelle Tue 28-Jun-11 19:04:27

Can't stop the tears today. It is a long time since I've been like this.

We'll have lived through all the "firsts" after today. Now its time to live through it all again. It hurts that Belle's first year is over, what will be expected of us now? A year to everyone else will be a long time, but right now it feels like she flew away yesterday.

I'm so scared for Xander again today too. What if I can only have dead babies? I don't know how to keep him alive. I can't do this any differently to I did with Belle and she died. I couldn't keep her alive, what if I don't get him here either?

We've been to her garden and tidied it up after her birthday and made it pretty again. I can't believe she's been there for a year, I can't get the image of her in the ground out of my head. Feeling really distressed, she won't look like her anymore, even though I know and believe she is in heaven shining like the angel she is.

We're going to try sending another lantern when it gets dark.

Going to lie down for a while until then.

lavandes Tue 28-Jun-11 19:39:41

caz like me you have survived the worst year of your life.No other year will be worse. We have gone through the worst thing that could happen to anyone and we are still here. And while all this has been so painful you have managed to organise your fund raising day for SANDS in memory of your beautiful baby. You have been writing your blog and your poetry. You have been making so many people aware of what the loss of a baby is like. I think you are amazing, I have done nothing, I don't know how you have found the strength. You WILL keep your baby boy alive because you are strong. You may not think so now but I truly believe you are. Your family must be so proud of you because I would be if you were my daughter. A candle is lit here for you and your family tonight. xx

Minione Tue 28-Jun-11 19:47:18

Caz, I just want to second what Lavandes has said. I'm in awe of your strength and how you have organised the fund raisng for SANDS.

Belle would be so very proud of you. Take care and look after yourself xx

Caz sending you lots of love and hugs! x

janedoe25 Tue 28-Jun-11 19:57:12

Hugs to you caz i agree with lavandes . You are such an inspiration, i wish i had half the strength you have. Belle will be so proud of you, and will be looking out for he little brother too. xxx

Caz I echo what the others have said, you have been amazing in what you've done and are a very strong woman. Personally I think it takes more strength to carry on (hugs). I've had those thoughts about the image of Scarlett in the ground too but try to dismiss them; like you I think of her elsewhere in spirit. Take things easy xxx

Candle lit here as there are lots having a bad day today xxx

TooImmature2BMum Tue 28-Jun-11 21:03:20

Remembering my darling darling Thea. I love you so much, babykin.

Caz - no words, just hugs.

TooImmature2BMum Tue 28-Jun-11 21:04:30

Cheese, glad to hear your DH is doing a bit better. Mine is on anti-depressants too and he does think they help.

Can I agree with every word Lavendes said? Caz if you were my daughter I would be so very proud of you. xxx

The first year, in my experience, is the worst year. Your mind will be full of every emotion. Your precious little man will be a strong baby and he will bring a little bit of sunshine back into your lives. You will always and forever with Belle's mummy and she will be 'looking after' you and little man. She will be urging you to keep going, to keep 'pinning on your smile', to keep holding her in your heart.

Your emotions today, I personally think, are totally and utterly normal. Thinking of you and holding you close across the miles xx

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