Rainbow babies. Remembering our angels, riding the rollercoaster and hoping for little rainbows and sunshine.

[Little9]

An angel in the book of life wrote down our babies births. And whispered as she closed the book...too beautiful for this earth.

Fingers crossed for rainbows and BFPs for everyone!

Remembering my precious Sterre and very grateful to be holding my beautiful rainbow baby Lotta.

Little I love that quote . Someone wrote that in one of Georgie's cards & it always brings a tear to my eye. How are you? Animals are clever aren t they? My 2 cats ( now 1 deceased ) seemed to pick up on my misery after my mcs & Georgie. Xx
Elly glad you re ok? Hope the physio session helps. Xx
Moomins good luck tomorrow. I had my section under a spinal anasethetic . Piece of cake . No probs xxx
Lovely news about all the sucessful scans ... Xxx
Bit of a funny day as our car rear window has been smashed completely. Was parked at Ant's works & in the wind a piece of plastic from a shelter was blown straight in to the car!!! So that's £100 excess to get that fixed!!! We re so due some good luck soon ... Ok?
Xxx take care all xxx
Hope all are

Angel - it always does that to me too. Someone put it in one of Daisy's cards a few weeks after we lost her and it nearly floored me. Such poignant words. I seem to be holding up relatively well so far, thanks. Sorry about your car. Sending you loads of good luck vibes. Xx

Little: Such a beautiful title for the new thread. I love that quote too, my auntie wrote it to me after we lost 'A'. Its also, by an amazing coincidence, engraved on a stone just behind him in the cemetery!
Glad your getting lots of cuddles from the dogs! I'm thinking of you every day. Hows your DH doing? Sending big hugs your way xxxxx

Angel: I hope you do get some good luck soon thats awful about the windscreen needing to be replaced.......its always the same when things are tight isnt it. Your not alone just had to wave by by to £200 to get our boiler fixed xxx

Blue: How are the girls? I cant believe how quickly Lotta has grown. Love your FB photos with the snowman their gorgeous xxx

Love and miss my little boy more than ever xx

Thinking of us all xxxxx

Thankyou rainbox for the last thread and little for the new one.

Remembering my beautiful golden Ophelia who at least I got to meet. And remembering my beanbag and bungle only here for a few short days but you will always be my babies.

Remembering all our angels tonight and always.

Thanks for the new thread LITTLE. Your girls are in my thoughts...

Remembering all our angel children, and my lovely Merryn, born in the spring last year and with us for six days. Always in the middle of my family and my heart. Soon we will have bluebells again and the year will have turned full circle, how is this possible? Love you sweet girl. Xx

Hi all, and thank you little for the new thread in memory of all our children, and especially of little Lily. I'm thinking of you so much. As the others have said, we are here to listen at any and all stages, but I'm glad that you have already put so many coping strategies in place.

moomins wishing you luck for today, looking forward to hearing your news! Also hope all goes well for your friend and her twins, elly.

Love to all. After a good couple of weeks, I am now having an incredibly teary few days - DH is away for work, too, which is bad timing, and my parents are here to 'help' which isn't really 'helping' at all Bless them, I didn't want them to come but couldn't really refuse! I wish they didn't have to see me when I'm so sad - but it's how it goes isn't it, so many ups and downs, and how we can we expect it to be otherwise?
I just miss E so much, and feel so... redundant, without her. My perfect little girl.

KLEINE... I'm sorry you are having a tough time. It's not easy at the best of times. When is your DH back? I imagine your parents are glad to be there for you, but I know it doesn't always make things easier does it?

MOOMINS... I don't know what time you are booked in, but hope you are either managing the wait, or having lovely cuddles by now!

I have my booking appt this afternoon. (10 weeks). I know this sounds silly, but I am dreading being handed my notes, I don't want to have a concrete reminder that this is so real, it doesn't feel real at all. I will have to go through everything that happened with Merryn, and there is just so much of it....and it was so horrible. I have been through it with so many doctors, I wish they'd just speak to each other! A very small gripe in the scheme of things, I'm so lucky to be here in this position at all, I know this, I'm just scared.

moomins thinking of you today, hoping you are having lovly cuddles. Can't wait to hear your baby news!

green its ok to feel scared. Tell your midwife all about it and how you feel, tell her you don't want to have to say it over and over again. Get her to make sure anyone else who looks after you will read your notes before. Do you have a sands sticker to put on your notes? Ask the midwife for one but if she doesn't have one I think you can buy them on the sands website.

Thank you little for the new thread, with a lovely title. I have that quote stuck to my monitor at work, always brings a tear to my eye. Thinking of you and your darling girls xx

Thanks also to rainbox for the old thread.

Remembering my darling Nancy and all her angel friends xxx

green it's totally normal and understandable to be scared, thinking of you, hope it goes ok - I cried my eyes out at my booking appt, and MW did too! Def recommend asking for the Sands sticker, although my MW didn't have them, they put one on my hospital notes instead, but all the MWs that I have seen have been aware of my history, so def mention it.

Thinking of you moomins, I hope all is well xxx

Sorry you are having a tough time kleine, rubbish that DH is away, very bad timing. I hope that your parents are giving you space to be sad xxx

Thanks Elly and Fan... I went to appt, but we only got half way through because it's all so complicated, so need to go back in two weeks. mW was lovely though, but I hate having to remember everything that has happened, its all so complicated and rare, and they want to know everything. I understand its important, but it's not how I want to remember Merryn. The mw is going to get the sands stickers for my file for next time, so that's a start.
One day at a time....

MOOMINS, how are you?

KLEINE, I hope you are managing with parents and no DH. I hope you are being looked after... Some days are just very hard, and I'm sure your parents would rather see how you really feel and be there for you through it. Xxx

Hello to everyone on this thread. Beautiful words for our angels and rainbows - both here, and yet to be. Thinking of moomins today, but also hugs to green, little, and kleine. Sending love and light to you all, from me, Mia and Finn. xx

Hello everyone, baby was born this morning, spinal didn't work properly but had lots of gas and air so was ok.

He has lots of dark hair and is very cute, we still don't have a name for him though!

moomins so absolutely delighted for you, congratulations!! Enjoy those first few magical days of cuddles - and do let us know when you decide on a name!! x

MOOMINS... Hooray! Congratulations! (did gas and air really cut it, or are you just skimming over the ouch part)?! Your little boy sounds gorgeous! How big is he? Let us know when you have a name for him, and congratulations again!

It was quite ouch, but it was that or general so.

He's 7lb 11 so good weight for 38 weeks.

MOMMINS..That's a great weight! How long before you can both go home?

Congrats Moomins xxx
Green don t stress over MW appt. look at it as another step closer to your rainbow. Just a formality. Xxx another hurdle to overcome .
Kleine , hope you feel a little better soon. One day at a time is all you need to do xxx
Hope everyone's ok?
Little , hope you re ok?
Love to all xxx

Huge congratulations Moomins, such lovely news xxx

Thank you for the new thread little. X
Remembering all of our precious angels and my Zoe bear, who will be 2 years old on the 28th. Where has the time gone? It feels like forever and no time at all.

Green, just as angel said its one more hurdle to your rainbow.

Kleine, I'm sorry you are feeling so sad wish I could give you a hug. X

Moomins, huge congratulations but OMG To the spinal not working! Hope you have recovered are both well. X

Congratulations! moomins the pics of him on facebook are just goregous!!!!!

Huge thank you to little for starting the new thread. That is a beautiful quote, I had not heard it before. Hope you are still having good hours and being looked after. If you want to scream and chew furniture though, that is fine too!

Angel great news that Ant has got something, even temporarily. But a bugger about your car. If it isn't one thing its something else! Hope everything is okay.

Kleine I am sorry you have been having such a tough time. You put it really well, some days it is just an incredible feeling of uselessness. Without our babies, what are we supposed to do? But you are loved and needed by many and we are always here for you xx

Green I know it is tough. Having to talk to every nurse and every doctor and all the receptionists again and again, and then feeling guilty for making them feel sad. Like Angel says, every one is a small step along the journey. She is very wise! I'm glad they are keeping a good close eye on you, hope it is helping keep you reassured and calm.

Moomins huge congratulations! Sounds a wee bit scary, but glad he is here and you are both safe and well. Looking forward to hearing the name!

Love and good thoughts to everyone on this shiney new thread. May it bring us all everything we want.

My scan went well, and I am back in on the 11th. Then they will be scanning my cervix and depending on the result we will have to decide if we want a stitch put in pre-emptitively or monitored and possibly need one as an emergency. I wish I knew what the right answer was.

Remembering my precious boy Dexter. Loved and missed everyday. Full of hope for this rainbow.

Congratulations Moomins. So pleased all went well.

Rainbox - glad the scan went well. Hope it's not too difficult to make the decision. It's never easy is it?

Green - just to echo all the others on here. Keep your chin up and just focus on each day as it comes.

Had a bad day yesterday, but seem to have managed to pull myself together a bit today. Am going out tonight to a local (quiet) pub with DH, Bil and Sil, so am looking forward to some alcohol! Hope I don't get too drunk though as haven't had any since before getting pregnant with Lily!!

moomins that's wonderful news - congratulations - though I am also at the spinal not working properly. Ouch indeed! I hope you are having such a wonderful time with cuddles and feeding and just all being together xx

little bad days are awful, aren't they. I'm glad you're feeling a little better today - and hope the alcohol helps! Well done in advance for going out. But I just want to say all over again, I'm just SO sorry that you're going through this for a second time. I cannot imagine, and am so sad for you. As I said, and as we all know, bad days are awful - but they're also 100% allowed and (sadly) 100% necessary. Along with everyone else on this thread, I continue to think of you so often, and send lots of love xx

green well done lovie - but, so sorry it took so long that you need a second booking appointment. I do know what you mean about hating having to go over the details, I also struggle with that during my various hospital/clinic appts. Echoing the one-day-at-a-time advice on here

rainbox I'm so glad that all continues to be well. I hope you're given good advice on what steps to take next and when... What's your consultant like - assuming you've met? I also wish there was an obvious choice to make, but I do know that you will make the very best decision you can. Am also full of hope for you and little babybox x

blizy thanks so much, lovely. You might remember that I share a birthday with your beautiful Zoe, so I have been thinking about her, and about you, knowing that it was coming up to her second birthday. I cannot tell you how much I wish she was with you.

mias thank you too. How are you and MrMia doing? I hope Finn is well, and that you are still, somehow, coping with the big whirlwind of emotions and hormones.

angel blimey you guys really do deserve a run of good luck now. So sorry about the car - but v glad that Ant has found a job, even if it's just one to tide you over until he finds something he prefers. How's Phebs?

Big waves and hugs and love to fan, babyh, blue, elly, wtw, spilt and all the rest of you lovely ladies. And thank you all for your lovely words - just a bad few days, really, but seem to be ok-ish today and have seen a friend, and am going to other friends' for dinner. My parents didn't stay for long; sadly, it just made me even more upset that they were having to watch me being so upset (if that makes sense), and in the end we just agreed that we'd see each other again another time. They do know I'm not always like that... but it was very tough for them seeing it, they looked so sad and helpless. DH is back on Mon. It's the first time we've been apart since having E, and I hadn't expected his absence to hit me this hard. He is also having a difficult time, but managing. (spilt, hope your DH gets home safely btw - he must be coming home soon!) xxx