Little I love that quote . Someone wrote that in one of Georgie's cards & it always brings a tear to my eye. How are you? Animals are clever aren t they? My 2 cats ( now 1 deceased ) seemed to pick up on my misery after my mcs & Georgie. Xx Elly glad you re ok? Hope the physio session helps. Xx Moomins good luck tomorrow. I had my section under a spinal anasethetic . Piece of cake . No probs xxx Lovely news about all the sucessful scans ... Xxx Bit of a funny day as our car rear window has been smashed completely. Was parked at Ant's works & in the wind a piece of plastic from a shelter was blown straight in to the car!!! So that's £100 excess to get that fixed!!! We re so due some good luck soon ... Ok? Xxx take care all xxx Hope all are
Angel - it always does that to me too. Someone put it in one of Daisy's cards a few weeks after we lost her and it nearly floored me. Such poignant words. I seem to be holding up relatively well so far, thanks. Sorry about your car. Sending you loads of good luck vibes. Xx
Little: Such a beautiful title for the new thread. I love that quote too, my auntie wrote it to me after we lost 'A'. Its also, by an amazing coincidence, engraved on a stone just behind him in the cemetery! Glad your getting lots of cuddles from the dogs! I'm thinking of you every day. Hows your DH doing? Sending big hugs your way xxxxx
Angel: I hope you do get some good luck soon thats awful about the windscreen needing to be replaced.......its always the same when things are tight isnt it. Your not alone just had to wave by by to £200 to get our boiler fixed xxx
Blue: How are the girls? I cant believe how quickly Lotta has grown. Love your FB photos with the snowman their gorgeous xxx
Thanks for the new thread LITTLE. Your girls are in my thoughts...
Remembering all our angel children, and my lovely Merryn, born in the spring last year and with us for six days. Always in the middle of my family and my heart. Soon we will have bluebells again and the year will have turned full circle, how is this possible? Love you sweet girl. Xx
Hi all, and thank you little for the new thread in memory of all our children, and especially of little Lily. I'm thinking of you so much. As the others have said, we are here to listen at any and all stages, but I'm glad that you have already put so many coping strategies in place.
moomins wishing you luck for today, looking forward to hearing your news! Also hope all goes well for your friend and her twins, elly.
Love to all. After a good couple of weeks, I am now having an incredibly teary few days - DH is away for work, too, which is bad timing, and my parents are here to 'help' which isn't really 'helping' at all Bless them, I didn't want them to come but couldn't really refuse! I wish they didn't have to see me when I'm so sad - but it's how it goes isn't it, so many ups and downs, and how we can we expect it to be otherwise? I just miss E so much, and feel so... redundant, without her. My perfect little girl.
KLEINE... I'm sorry you are having a tough time. It's not easy at the best of times. When is your DH back? I imagine your parents are glad to be there for you, but I know it doesn't always make things easier does it?
MOOMINS... I don't know what time you are booked in, but hope you are either managing the wait, or having lovely cuddles by now!
I have my booking appt this afternoon. (10 weeks). I know this sounds silly, but I am dreading being handed my notes, I don't want to have a concrete reminder that this is so real, it doesn't feel real at all. I will have to go through everything that happened with Merryn, and there is just so much of it....and it was so horrible. I have been through it with so many doctors, I wish they'd just speak to each other! A very small gripe in the scheme of things, I'm so lucky to be here in this position at all, I know this, I'm just scared.
green its ok to feel scared. Tell your midwife all about it and how you feel, tell her you don't want to have to say it over and over again. Get her to make sure anyone else who looks after you will read your notes before. Do you have a sands sticker to put on your notes? Ask the midwife for one but if she doesn't have one I think you can buy them on the sands website.
Thank you little for the new thread, with a lovely title. I have that quote stuck to my monitor at work, always brings a tear to my eye. Thinking of you and your darling girls xx
Thanks also to rainbox for the old thread.
Remembering my darling Nancy and all her angel friends xxx
green it's totally normal and understandable to be scared, thinking of you, hope it goes ok - I cried my eyes out at my booking appt, and MW did too! Def recommend asking for the Sands sticker, although my MW didn't have them, they put one on my hospital notes instead, but all the MWs that I have seen have been aware of my history, so def mention it.
Thinking of you moomins, I hope all is well xxx
Sorry you are having a tough time kleine, rubbish that DH is away, very bad timing. I hope that your parents are giving you space to be sad xxx
Thanks Elly and Fan... I went to appt, but we only got half way through because it's all so complicated, so need to go back in two weeks. mW was lovely though, but I hate having to remember everything that has happened, its all so complicated and rare, and they want to know everything. I understand its important, but it's not how I want to remember Merryn. The mw is going to get the sands stickers for my file for next time, so that's a start. One day at a time....
MOOMINS, how are you?
KLEINE, I hope you are managing with parents and no DH. I hope you are being looked after... Some days are just very hard, and I'm sure your parents would rather see how you really feel and be there for you through it. Xxx
Hello to everyone on this thread. Beautiful words for our angels and rainbows - both here, and yet to be. Thinking of moomins today, but also hugs to green, little, and kleine. Sending love and light to you all, from me, Mia and Finn. xx
MOOMINS... Hooray! Congratulations! (did gas and air really cut it, or are you just skimming over the ouch part)?! Your little boy sounds gorgeous! How big is he? Let us know when you have a name for him, and congratulations again!
Congrats Moomins xxx Green don t stress over MW appt. look at it as another step closer to your rainbow. Just a formality. Xxx another hurdle to overcome . Kleine , hope you feel a little better soon. One day at a time is all you need to do xxx Hope everyone's ok? Little , hope you re ok? Love to all xxx
Huge thank you to little for starting the new thread. That is a beautiful quote, I had not heard it before. Hope you are still having good hours and being looked after. If you want to scream and chew furniture though, that is fine too!
Angel great news that Ant has got something, even temporarily. But a bugger about your car. If it isn't one thing its something else! Hope everything is okay.
Kleine I am sorry you have been having such a tough time. You put it really well, some days it is just an incredible feeling of uselessness. Without our babies, what are we supposed to do? But you are loved and needed by many and we are always here for you xx
Green I know it is tough. Having to talk to every nurse and every doctor and all the receptionists again and again, and then feeling guilty for making them feel sad. Like Angel says, every one is a small step along the journey. She is very wise! I'm glad they are keeping a good close eye on you, hope it is helping keep you reassured and calm.
Moomins huge congratulations! Sounds a wee bit scary, but glad he is here and you are both safe and well. Looking forward to hearing the name!
Love and good thoughts to everyone on this shiney new thread. May it bring us all everything we want.
My scan went well, and I am back in on the 11th. Then they will be scanning my cervix and depending on the result we will have to decide if we want a stitch put in pre-emptitively or monitored and possibly need one as an emergency. I wish I knew what the right answer was.
Remembering my precious boy Dexter. Loved and missed everyday. Full of hope for this rainbow.
Congratulations Moomins. So pleased all went well.
Rainbox - glad the scan went well. Hope it's not too difficult to make the decision. It's never easy is it?
Green - just to echo all the others on here. Keep your chin up and just focus on each day as it comes.
Had a bad day yesterday, but seem to have managed to pull myself together a bit today. Am going out tonight to a local (quiet) pub with DH, Bil and Sil, so am looking forward to some alcohol! Hope I don't get too drunk though as haven't had any since before getting pregnant with Lily!!