I cant help it, I need you lot, dp died yesterday, I cant stop seeing it, it hurts so much

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TrinityRhino Sat 11-May-13 08:40:14

everything hurts, I cant close my eyes without seeing it happening
he collapsed at home
I did chest compressions till the ambulance came
they tried for ages but he was gone
I cant stop seeing it
my arms hurt, my heart hurts
I'm exhausted
I cant do this again

TrinityRhino Sat 11-May-13 08:40:39

its like a nightmare that I'm not waking up from
I cant stop it

PerfumedPonce Sat 11-May-13 08:41:55

I'm so sorry. What an awful thing to happen. Cannot imagine how you are feeling. Have you got support at home?

HappyJustToBe Sat 11-May-13 08:42:14

Hand to hold. Do you have anyone with you?

I'm so sorry to hear that. Sending you a hug.
Can you get some counselling?

DottyDot Sat 11-May-13 08:43:22

Oh God Trinity no.... I'm so, so sorry. Have you got anyone with you?

justaboutalittlefrazzled Sat 11-May-13 08:43:33

Oh god Trinity, I don't believe it.

You poor poor thing. How are the children?

onceipopicantstop Sat 11-May-13 08:43:35

Hi Trinity I'm so so sorry for your loss. Are you on your own? Is there anyone you can call to come over?

hellhasnofurylikeahungrywoman Sat 11-May-13 08:43:58

What an awful thing to experience, have you got someone with you? My heart goes out to you, I am so sorry for your loss.

TrinityRhino Sat 11-May-13 08:44:47

dd1 is here but my friend had to go home to her dog first thing this morning

dd2 and gecko are with my neighbour
close friends of ours and the littluns chose to stay over last night

purplepillow is coming over later but her mum is still in hospital and she needs to see her first

usualsuspect Sat 11-May-13 08:45:07

Trinity, I'm so so sorry.

Have you got someone with you?

ClaimedByMe Sat 11-May-13 08:45:15

Aww trinity, I can't think if anything to say sad keep posting if it helps xx

D0GWithAYoni Sat 11-May-13 08:45:16

Oh Trinity I'm so so sorry for you. I wish I could do something.

Oh god I'm so sorry.

WhereMyMilk Sat 11-May-13 08:45:49

Oh Trin, how awful for you. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family,x

Trinity I am so, so sorry. x

You probably won't want to but do you think you could call the emergency out of hours GP to come and give you something just to get you through this immediate aftermath?

Do you have help there with you now? Where are you in the country?

Am so sorry this has happened, big hug and hand hold.

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

Tiredtrout Sat 11-May-13 08:46:49

I'm so sorry trinity, that's just a terrible thing to have happen

BranchingOut Sat 11-May-13 08:47:08

So sorry, how awful.

You will stop seeing it, but maybe not just yet. Have you slept? Can you get anyone to be with you.

Indith Sat 11-May-13 08:47:20

I'm so sorry Trinity.

Well done for keeping your head and doing compressions. You did exactly the right thing and gave him every chance you could.

My thoughts are with you and your family.

McKayz Sat 11-May-13 08:47:36

Oh god Trinity, I am so so sorry xx

CharlieUniformNovemberTango Sat 11-May-13 08:47:58

Oh Trinity - I'm so desperately sorry you're having to deal with this sad

You need some real life people around you though.

Be kind to yourself - it's going to hurt and there is nothing you can do to stop that this soon so don't waste your time trying to be normal or right just now.

One breath at a time. That's all you need to get through just now xx

poachedeggs Sat 11-May-13 08:47:59

Oh Trinity I'm so, so sorry, I can't believe this. You don't know me but I "know" you, and your story. Hang in there, MN is with you.

I'm so so sorry this has happened. I'm here to hold your hand. You must be feeling so raw and shocked. I'm sorry xx

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